I hope you are fine. I think it’s time to talk about myself and I will ask you to read this Letter to understand my story
I know all of us has struggled in different ways and overcoming everything in life.
Although we were born imperfect, but that doesn’t mean we can’t live the life we deserve and enjoy the happiness in life.
At a younger age, I discovered I was an adopted daughter; it affected my way of thinking, the way I see people and the way I see the world.
Life for me was unfair, full of cruelty, hatred, envy and jealousy.
Every single day I struggle, getting bullied at school, and at home being treated as a second class child, I’ve always felt indifferent and that I do not belong to this world.
Each day I wake up I always have that one question in my mind “Why am I the most unfortunate human being?” I cry every day, I hated people so much, I hated the world but there’s only one thing I never hated it was “MYSELF”.
Studying in a catholic Academy when I was in high school helped me developed my faith in God and brought me closer to him every day
From then on I had never felt alone I knew I always have him with me wherever I go.
But sometimes I couldn’t understand why people don’t Accept me for who I am why people expect me to be perfect?
To be someone I’m not? Feeling unloved, confusion and jealousy led me to become someone I’m not, so I lied about who I was, about my family’s background, my achievements.
And where I’ve come from hoping that people will embrace and accept me, so I used to lie a lot, hides everything about me and my past.
As time goes by, I see myself as I’m a nobody, and later on I realized I was not happy and can’t be the person everyone wanted to see or related with and my struggles never stopped I have to face every fears and judgment so I decided to discover who myself and what I want to do with my life.
Sometimes I thought giving up was the only solution to end every suffering I felt inside emotionally, but then again I thought about God and I always have faith in myself that I’m going somewhere, where I want to be.
So there I was in a world again where no one could understand me completely, I was the most unlikable person I know, but I never stopped dreaming I want to be successful and I want to tell the world this who I am and this what I am.
At 15 years old I became involved in the Entrepreneurship community, later on, started my little business.
I worked and studied in college at the same time with my expense.
My friends think its madness and that I’m crazy for chasing my dreams.
One of the greatest regrets I had in my life is being what others would want me to be, rather than being myself! And I realized that “you are the only one that’s inside your head feeling all the anxieties and the voices telling you-you can’t be who you want to be or you can’t go where you want to be.
You’re going nowhere just because you’re not where you want to be yet
People are always mean to each other no matter what you do either you do good or bad everyone I mean EVERYONE has something to say about you but you can overcome that.
The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If you look in the mirror and your mind is telling you all the things you’re not, that
You’re not pretty,
You’re not smart,
You’re not popular,
You are unsuccessful,
You’re not special and
You’re not loved those are not the things you are not.
You are your own real definition of worthwhile and beauty.
I learned many years ago to forgive myself because if I live, I will make mistakes it’s inevitable.
And making mistakes doesn’t make you a bad person, you’re not damaged just because you have made mistakes in your life, you only need to correct the mistakes, Learn from it to be wiser, stronger and smarter.
I know the terrifying thing is to Accept Oneself.
But Self-acceptance means living the life you live without worrying what others think about you. It doesn’t matter what someone else thinks about you. What matters is what you think about yourself.
I encourage everyone to accept oneself for who you are.
Life doesn’t suck at all times, people are good, the world is good, and there is always someone somewhere who could understand you and accept you for who you are
All the Best
Belle Mancao Apellido
Founder Gasa Sa Katawhan
Business Devt. Manager
Note: Belle is my Friend we met in Cebu, Philippines and she wants to share her personal story to inspire people to discover their secret Grit to success