Hello fellow human, Posting will happen at the new place: https://blog.ithakaonmymind.com/ RSS feed: https://blog.ithakaonmymind.com/feed Why I am moving is explained here: https://ithaka… Read More

One more time, Powell’s. And with that, I will return to my blogging hiatus. For now: This was a fun trip with a good long-time friend. We talked about philosophy, religion, educat… Read More

I admire people who can take beautiful selfies. It’s more than about beautiful faces or hair/makeup. Self photography, like any photography, is a skill. Knowing how you can look good… Read More

So much sun today. It is getting hot in Portland. At the brewery: Also, randomly: I think they are passion flowers. 🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything I do is organized here. … Read More

So sunny. Much pleased with toastiness. More pictures of general Portland, including much green, will come later. Way later. I predict a lot of catching up with work once I return… Read More

But as a result of entertaining these symbols for thousands of years, we are utterly taken by them, to the point where we cannot distinguish the symbol from the reality. And the difference b… Read More

It was a city of friendly people, many dogs, and freakishly energetic birds. Also, of unusually clean restrooms (even public ones) and skies that dramatically change colors, ranging from fa… Read More

It is spring, and so there is plenty of natural pink to find. I did take other pictures. It’s just that while I am traveling, I am not sitting down to blog ☺️ There are… Read More

Much sun today. Pink today. Also, blue sky. No rain yet, today. Much glad. 🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything I do is organized here. 📚 The latest stories are also above… Read More

Much needed. 🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything I do is organized here. 📚 The latest stories are also above. Click on the covers. 📻 Sponge (podcast) shortcut. BTC lov… Read More

…on bad timing and good timing, the right people and the wrong people. Sometimes the right people meet when it’s bad timing. Sometimes the wrong people meet when it’s goo… Read More

Much reflection! Many reflections! Added: A bit rainy… 🌧️ 🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything I do is organized here. 📚 The latest stories are also ab… Read More

Some new life things on the horizon: The trip is happening soon. A new career opportunity has presented itself. The number of people who are now aware of my legal name as well as my pen name… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) According to her: Do it, without telling yourself “don’t be negative,” “you’re imagining it,” “ignore what ups… Read More

This isn’t merely fear, this thing I am feeling now. This is terror. I never knew that ignorance could be so terrifying. This ignorance I am talking about here is a deep fury, a ferv… Read More

No sleep for 48hrs, no food for 44hrs. Much tired. Much exhausted. It’s not because I slept so much prior to the 48hrs, or ate normally prior to the 44hrs. It’s because of the… Read More

#nebelung planted this idea in my head that, unless I figure out what emotions I feel during notable events in my life, additional events will occur to trigger the same emotions until I admi… Read More

Rant ahead. Very sad story today. Kind of funny though. This happened yesterday. I had never encountered a specimen of this particular kind before. This one calls itself a full-grown woma… Read More

Oh-oh, I do believe In all the things you see What comes is better Than what came before And you better come, come Come, come to me Better come, come, come, come, come to me Better run, run… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) According to her, no one can love you except you. No one else can love you through joy and sorrow, “good” and “bad,” triumph and… Read More

She waited for an answer to her question. “Well?” No response. This wasn't like him. He was usually full of stories and deep insights into the human mind—not this empty… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) She says, that’s basically what it’s like to leave emotions suppressed. It’s like piling up garbage in the basement, while cleaning onl… Read More

The Procreate app says that the file for this illustration was created on December 26, 2020. It’s difficult to believe that it’s been that long. The story was recently publish… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) She said, “Seeing instances which cause specific emotions means that the time to release said emotions has come.” Oh? “You didn&rsquo&hell…Read More

From https://www.myfarewelling.com/article/buddhist-funeral Specific days are significant in the Buddhist mourning journey, with activities or rituals happening on the 3rd, 7th, 49th, and 1… Read More

There are those who are used to wanting things and not getting them; then there are others who are used to wanting things and getting them. In both cases, this isn’t only observable; p… Read More

Some contexts for this post can only be collected from previous posts. It was no coincidence that it happened there, at a time when those philosopher gurus rose to fame, online. The city s… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) According to Nebelung: the path to true love cannot be paved with clueless ignorance. Only by having been hurt and having hurt, one can receive and give… Read More

The kid cries. This dream is too obvious to warrant analysis. It’s nothing subconscious; everything is on the surface and “real” with this dream. I barely know the kid&rsq&hell…Read More

🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything I do is organized here. 📚 The latest stories are also above. Click on the covers. 📻 Sponge (podcast) shortcut. BTC love, send here:… Read More

Labrador suggested that, first and foremost: Get rid of the sense that I need defenses. Sure, the “reality” is that there are home security insurances and protective measures ag… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) She said, it’s about allowing fury. Otherwise, more suppression occurs in infinite cycles. More guilt, more shame will rise up to be suppressed, as… Read More

(My legal name hidden, mostly. Hehehe.) I didn’t remember that there was a notebook specifically for second graders. What did the first grader notebook and third grader notebook loo… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) The solution: observe. And for that, acknowledgment is key, she says. Pretending not to feel is the worst. Such persons will never release the suppress… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) This is a series of posts. Nebelung has told me a lot of things, and I will attempt to organize them in digestible chunks. However, there will inevitabl… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) For M to give Nebelung an overview of the events, it took less than thirty minutes. The mechanical realities were simple. Things happened, that was all… Read More

Continued from the previous two posts… (In which I used the money example, so I shall keep using the money example.) So, the theory is that suppressed subconscious fears exist, and t… Read More

(From conversations with #nebelung) Call her Nebelung. The name comes from the word “Nebel,” which means “fog” in German. It is also a species of cat. I picked this… Read More

Related to the previous post… I used the money example before, so I shall continue with that. So. We got this subconscious fear about money. The biggest problem, the adherents of th… Read More

Such intense phone calls with Nebelung. Among those, conversations about dreams. I think the dreams will be the last themes that I will digest. For now, there are so many other themes. Thes… Read More

These days, I am floating around the odd corners of Youtube quite often. These are the corners of non-mainstream spirituality, psychology, and sometimes, science. And an interesting idea th… Read More

Many things that I did in the past one year or so, I will attempt to do the opposite way. Then maybe I can undo some elements, and most importantly, prevent similar elements from entering my… Read More

Labrador: utterly unreligious, casually spiritual. Body focused, health conscious. Works a lot. And yet, very much in the here and now. He shares similarities with Nebelung and me… bu… Read More

Nebelung (not her real name, but I think it’s cool; very Nebel—“fog” in German; also, Nebelung is a species of cat) told me, I created him. Everything he did, he did… Read More

It all began with Descartes, they say. The dude had every right to think what he wanted to, but oh, did things go wrong because what he thought became so popular. In the Western world, and t… Read More

I am traveling to Seattle, WA and Portland, OR in early- to mid-May. If you would like a postcard, please email [email protected] by April 30: Your name Your address Anything else… Read More

The other day, I somehow landed on a depressing Youtube video. I don’t know what the video was about, because I didn’t watch it. I just remember what the comments section talked… Read More

Another quite-long episode. But this time, it’s because I was able to find a public domain recording of the Chopin Piano Sonata No. 2. How did I find it? First, I asked ChatGPT (heheh… Read More

I have two blogs: this one, and one in Korean. Both are off the r.w.a. feed right now. They have been so for maybe a month. And, I can’t understand how/why the pageview stats of this… Read More

That’s the amount of time that’s passed. 4 years since I first published, and 11 years since I first decided to write, with the intention to put such writing out there and keep o… Read More

The reason this concept of entanglement—simultaneously acting/reacting twin existences—makes me feel so fulfilled seems to be that it is a great solace to imagine a being that pa… Read More

So perfectly blue. Not a single lonely cloud. 🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything I do is organized here. 📚 The latest stories are also above. Click on the covers. 📻 Sp… Read More

What a tough month. But it is now gone, and even the first day of April is gone. And what I am left with is a neat digest. https://imaginariumkim.com/digest/march-2023-digest/ It’s a… Read More

I know a neat way to put what seems to be in the present in the past. It’s done by ceasing to use the language used around that thing. There is always specific language that is used be… Read More

This idea of circulation is what I’m intrigued by, these days. Not just circulation within the body, but of everything everywhere all at once; energy, in general. Circulation of give… Read More

This video is hilarious and also, sounds right. 😂 🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything I do is organized here. 📚 The latest stories are also above. Click on the covers… Read More

From the latest Laterpress newsletter: Federal judge John G. Koeltl has ruled unequivocally against the Internet Archive, declaring that their practice of scanning physical books and loanin… Read More

I think I get “too okay” when specific events happen, to be clinically depressed—simple events, like fixing the printer, publishing a story, and eating pizza. Thus, I have… Read More

For years, when I did have insomnia, it happened at the beginning of sleep: I couldn’t fall asleep. But once I did fall asleep, usually I didn’t have huge problems staying asleep… Read More

To be exact, back in December 2021! Those three short stories have now been collected into one mini-book, Agora Phantasmagoria. (At the time of this writing, it will be the left-most book i… Read More

This blog is now tagless. The tag system was getting more and more complicated, with too many tags. If I didn’t use many tags, then each tag page was so long and unnavigable that it se… Read More

Back on February 2, I sent a question email to the support of write.as. That email has not been answered yet, on March 25. In cases like these, what I mainly wonder about isn’t the an… Read More

And now I am so proud of myself…! It wasn’t anything complicated, but it sure felt complicated. Something to do with the connector(?) of how the toner is registered(?) by the s… Read More

Much up and down these days. The day starts okay, although it takes me about an hour to get out of bed. And the very fact that I now know about these things… https://www.psycom.net/… Read More

What a long episode. I couldn’t help it. There is always so much to talk about with Park Chan-wook’s movies. Such wonderful movies. So much beauty, clarity, and tragedy. This e… Read More

Oh, how I despise them. If you want to do “good,” make your own stuff. Why idiots think they can take other people’s stuff, distribute them freely, and then pretend they… Read More

These days, I am acutely aware of how arbitrary my goals have been for… forever. Ever since I was born, this has been so. “Getting better at a language” or “getting… Read More

The other day, I was in a “why do we live?” state of mind. Like a good world citizen of the early 21st century, I went to Youtube to search for the answers, even though I knew f… Read More

Sponging of old notes. Trip. Seriously. The trip. I’ve been talking about this for months. It won’t be san fran after all, but plans are happening & dates will be set. Probab… Read More

And it has a new app and all. This happened somet ime in mid-March, and I’ve been enjoying the new pretty colors thoroughly. They match Sponge’s colors perfectly. Pretty light pu… Read More

Each channel I have has extra information. If there is a new Sponge episode, I don’t just share the link here. There is something in addition to the podcast here, or I don’t ment… Read More

“Worked,” in that people did download free books. I didn’t know it could be so easy. It had been my experience that it’s difficult to distribute free books. Yes, even… Read More

Even with a public private life, such as blogging in public, things can be kept very quiet, simply by leaving all feeds, when possible. Ex) r.w.a. It can be joined and unjoined whenever th… Read More

Apparently, it is a method that is recommended for relaxation. I don’t know about the exhaustion part, but, sure, I’ll walk more than usual and see if it adds incremental relaxat… Read More

On January 1st, I wrote the post: “I want to stop dismantling my paper notebooks.” This year, I have been keeping a journal in a Midori notebook. I got it because internet wisdo… Read More

I wondered if I had made the wrong decision. But it turns out, at least for this one tiny part, I was right. Now I understand my friend even better—why she chose to do what she did. T… Read More

Hopefully. One of the few things I am glad about these days is that I kept most of my surroundings oblivious to things that don’t fall into their particular compartments. Thus, trave… Read More

There are many. I don’t want to throw them away. At the practical level: I need them for Sponge. At another level: these notes contain the pieces of me that I kept intact. I must rel… Read More

This happens mutually. People carry baggage, shove it in the face of others, then wonder why others don’t return-shove, if things are so tough. Why? Probably because after the initia… Read More

I read through some privately-shared posts from the past. The shift in my attitude occurs clearly. Prior to the shift, I already had the fear of things ending—but it was at a “n… Read More

Listening to Sponge ep. 25. What a weird feeling. Who is this person who is talking? So hopeful, she is! Also, what?! So many things mean different things now. I wonder what is the point o… Read More

I will write. Things are sort of fine. On the surface, things are mostly always fine. I can eat, drink, and laugh. A couple of hours a day—oh, of course I can do that. There is a we… Read More

Having a record of my old speed is proving to be extremely useful. 750-1k words per hour was the norm for me. Present speed: 100-300 words per hour. 🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything… Read More

Recording has continued, in the meantime—just, mainly, not in digital format. Handwritten notes from the past are now being filled, typed one by one. The purpose isn’t to contin… Read More

Warning: post contains mentions of my friend’s suicide. Giving explanations becomes making excuses. Being surrounded by excuses was part of why she chose to end her life. The degree… Read More

In some other universes, nothing has changed and things are still going exactly as they have been going for however many months, years. 🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything I do is organi… Read More

I knew. I just didn’t want to admit the possibility, or that it would happen so quickly. Maybe it happened as I was writing the other post. As she wished, she is now pain free. She i… Read More

Sometimes the situation that a friend is in is too painful to witness, but there is no choice but to witness it, because to look away would be to abandon her. And truly, there is nothing but… Read More

And for that, privacy. I go back into my shell. With me, what was here. To rest. 🌊 Call me Ithaka. Everything I do is organized here. 📚 The latest stories are also above… Read More

Recently, I had the opportunity to talk about the exact same topic to three different people. Each of them reacted differently. Entirely differently. The topic was about an artist. A musici… Read More

We, each of us, do not fall into just one single category. Sex, nationality, age, marriage status, height, weight, blood type, birth month—in however many ways we may attempt to divide… Read More

I found out after creating my page. If I had known, I might have created the page sooner, because I would’ve chosen BMAC over the other options, quickly. The messaging feature in the… Read More

Some people thrive under deadlines. They want the deadlines. Some even say that they need deadlines. As to me… Sure, I can work with deadlines. Especially when it comes to work that… Read More

Youtube app away from my phone Black-and-white filter No audiobooks in the mornings (+ evenings) Pillowcase over the Mac from 7pm-11am (unless recording or editing podcasts). Small screen… Read More

Sponge is gradually settling into a structure. It has one-hour-ish episodes (sometimes 1.5hrs!). Instead of covering one seed (book, movie, music, etc) in multiple ways, I pick one theme a… Read More

I use the word “vertex” for a “the end” scene toward which I aspire. Recently, I learned there’s a whole thing about the “vortex.” I chose &ldqu&hell…Read More

So, from several days ago: No more Youtube app + black-and-white filter ON, for my phone. From couple of days ago: No more audiobooks in the mornings. Today: Minimize time on the big compu… Read More

I recently realized that unconsciously, I had been putting limitations on myself. The primary way in which such limitations manifest themselves is that I think “either/or” and no… Read More

There is a larger addiction, not just the ones pointed out in yesterday’s post. I am addicted to noise, it seems. This is a recent phenomenon. It’s not just Youtube, although Yo… Read More

Youtube is so useful. Yes, I know. I agree. Totally. Completely. But “useful” is only useful up to a point. All the world’s useful information won’t do me any good u… Read More