(From conversations with #nebelung)
This is a series of posts. Nebelung has told me a lot of things, and I will attempt to organize them in digestible chunks.
However, there will inevitably be meanderings. Nebelung’s POV of life is so utterly unfamiliar to me. She has her own very clear logic. (If you’re into spirituality and mind training, you may have heard similar things before.)
First, there are three main reasons for Fury, some of which may overlap.
1. When perceiving the other’s actions as abandonment, due to perceived lack of understanding and love.
This goes back to the general suppressed subconscious fears theory.
2. When perceiving the suppressed self in the target of fury, like a mirror.
ex) When I wanted to hurt someone, in the past, but suppressed that emotion –> someone will hurt me in my reality.
ex2) When I helped someone but didn’t really want to, in the past –> someone will not want to help me in my reality.
This does not mean that I should hurt someone when I feel like it, or that I shouldn’t help someone. She means I have to resolve the emotions; she doesn’t mean that I should do everything I “want” to do. I suspect that to her, such “wants” aren’t true “wants” anyway.
3. When a deeper emotion is being veiled through fury.
ex) guilt, shame.
All these cases, according to Nebelung, are the ego’s defense mechanism to protect itself.
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