After breaking up with Octavia Sophie and Marvin broke up shortly apparently he cheated on her, i was really pissed at him that he would do such a thing.When he asked why i broke up with Octavia i had no explanation.
Marvin and i had a very close relationship but it was sometimes toxic, but one day we were both walking our dogs and he suddenly said "i think your bi" i Looked at him and i said "what makes you think that" he said it was the way i acted around him sometimes, he had told me that his dad was homophobic and he'd told me how his dads brother was gay and how much is dad disliked him.
When he said that i hadn't denied it or anything we just walked on and talked about other things.
About 3 or 4 weeks had passed since Marvin said he thought i was bi and one evening i was in the living room with my Aunt and her husband and the Irish gay marriage referendum was on the TV and they were telling us the likelihood of it passing and i asked them "what if i was gay" in a joking tone but my heart fully pounding and my aunt who was African said "oh we'd disown you" and her husband didn't say anything.
It made me afraid for a while to come out or even hit that i was gay.
(Things might get sad and heavy now so if you want to turn away please do)
My aunt which i had since i was a baby and when she used to live in Nigeria looked after me
so when i came to Ireland with my grandma i called her mum and i called her husband dad because they were the only parents i had ever known.
Being an African parent as my aunt was there was certain things you had to do when a child was misbehaving and there was never any time outs for me or bold corners it was always if i done something wrong i would get hit with ,belts, shoes and whatever she could hit me with, she also gave me emotional abuse by saying i was "worthless" and calling me a "bastard".
It was the start of December, and the school reports would always come before Christmas and i would always dread it, the reports came and i was in bed and when i woke up and my name was called and i went downstairs and i saw the brown envelope and i instantly knew things weren't going to go well.
Dad wasn't home he was at work he worked as a taxi man, when i was downstairs she started giving out and shouting and i asked to see the report, my grades were pretty good on it and i couldn't see why she was so annoyed so she said "do you see the teachers comments",
when i looked at them about 2 teachers said "easily distracted" so i apologized for the and then boom she hit me a slap across the face and my ears were ringing, she proceed to take off her shoe and i said "stop" and that seemed to add fuel to the fire and she said "how dare you tell me to stop" she kept hitting me and i got so angry i clenched my fist and was about to hit her but i didn't this made her stop. I went into my room and slammed the door shut driven with anger and hurt i was crying, i eventually calmed down and sat on my bed afraid of what was gonna happen next.
Dad came home and she told him what had happened and he came storming up the stairs and asked why i raised my hands up to her i said sorry and he punched me square in the nose and i started bleeding, he kept saying "put your hands up and hit me then" but i didn't i sat there and held my nose to try and stop the blood he left the room taking my phone and PS3 away and i sat there on the bed crying and felling betrayed.
