What's up guys, hope ya'll are well. Now I know this isn't a mental health forum, but as someone on his Spiritual journey through life, I could do with some advice on my issue from a Buddhist perspective.

I think I may suffer from ocd Intrusive Thoughts. I don't wanna say I do for definite cos I haven't been officially diagnosed, but everything seems to align with that specifically.

So as some of ya'll will know, today is 11/11/18 (depending on what time zone you're in). I try to be a spiritual person but I also feel very drawn to Buddhism too. 1111 is said to be a spiritual number. Now I am currently doing NoFap and unfortunately Relapsed today, and as a result, my mind is telling me that I will become the things I fear because I relapsed on 1111 (11/11).

I know it sounds ridiculous, but it can really make me feel anxious at times. So my question to you guys is, how do I let this go and realise that I will NOT become what I fear because I relapsed on a date that has spiritual significance?

Cheers guys