seeing you at lunchtime was heartbreaking. again. seeing someone that you care about suffering is one of the worst feelings in the world. especially when that person doesn't allow you to help them in any way.
despite all that, you have yet to understand that all the Pain that you are in is an indication of your feelings. your heart is screaming at you about it feels and you are denying it. you miss me so much that you soul is just crushing under all of that pressure of your denial.
i was really shocked to see you so raw, so vulnerable and so open today. your feelings were pouring out of you. it's more than i have ever seen of you since i've known you, so i guess I felt quite lucky to get a glimpse of your big and scared heart.
all I wanted to do was hold you in my arms and just be alone, in a room together and not talk, just let my touch heal you. just stroke your head, your back and embrace you just so you know that everything is ok and that you don't have to suffer like this and that there is nothing to fear. that I am here for you. and that together we can deal with anything. i can help you with anything.
sadly, it also made me think about doing Stuff together. when you mentioned you're going back to australia, i thought I would love for you to want me to come with you, whatever the adventures might bring. and how we could be planning all of these exciting and scary things together, panicking and laughing about it all, together, as a team.
but, as I said, my pain and my happiness are not your responsibility. I am a grown up and can handle myself. I aware of the fact that you are looking for someone that will make you feel in love with them and spark something in you that will make you want to be different with them.
despite all that, I can still be your friend, support and help you. I do know you better than you know yourself and you can trust me with anything. i have never nor will ever have any intention to harm you, but have every desire to make you happy in any way I can, as a friend and as another human being. this is my intention with anyone I have ever met in my life.
i really think that you would be so much happier with your quality of life and wouldn't think to move any countries or jobs in search of or running away from anything. because you've got all of that potential inside you. and lack of happiness will, unfortunately, follow you anywhere you go.
it was really nice to see you today and despite me apologising for causing you pain, I am not sorry we met. I know that sometimes you don't say the most helpful things for yourself, so you saying that you don't want to see or be contacted might be one of those.
But other than offering all of this help and you knowing it's there for you, I am not sure what else to do. Asking for help isn't something bad, nor you moaning. I am used to you, as you are. I accept you for all of your bad moments and good moments, so you "moaning" at me might be a perspective issue: I see it as a good thing, you might see it as a grumpy moment.
sharing with me things that you might think are Painful to hear for me or hard to say or admit to yourself shouldn't stop you from asking for help. getting this stuff our of your head and being in a trusting environment is good thing and the best thing you can do for yourself now.
I cannot help you if you won't let me. Just remember I have always been a friend to you first, before anything else. And that will never change.
despite all that, you have yet to understand that all the Pain that you are in is an indication of your feelings. your heart is screaming at you about it feels and you are denying it. you miss me so much that you soul is just crushing under all of that pressure of your denial.
i was really shocked to see you so raw, so vulnerable and so open today. your feelings were pouring out of you. it's more than i have ever seen of you since i've known you, so i guess I felt quite lucky to get a glimpse of your big and scared heart.
all I wanted to do was hold you in my arms and just be alone, in a room together and not talk, just let my touch heal you. just stroke your head, your back and embrace you just so you know that everything is ok and that you don't have to suffer like this and that there is nothing to fear. that I am here for you. and that together we can deal with anything. i can help you with anything.
sadly, it also made me think about doing Stuff together. when you mentioned you're going back to australia, i thought I would love for you to want me to come with you, whatever the adventures might bring. and how we could be planning all of these exciting and scary things together, panicking and laughing about it all, together, as a team.
but, as I said, my pain and my happiness are not your responsibility. I am a grown up and can handle myself. I aware of the fact that you are looking for someone that will make you feel in love with them and spark something in you that will make you want to be different with them.
despite all that, I can still be your friend, support and help you. I do know you better than you know yourself and you can trust me with anything. i have never nor will ever have any intention to harm you, but have every desire to make you happy in any way I can, as a friend and as another human being. this is my intention with anyone I have ever met in my life.
i really think that you would be so much happier with your quality of life and wouldn't think to move any countries or jobs in search of or running away from anything. because you've got all of that potential inside you. and lack of happiness will, unfortunately, follow you anywhere you go.
it was really nice to see you today and despite me apologising for causing you pain, I am not sorry we met. I know that sometimes you don't say the most helpful things for yourself, so you saying that you don't want to see or be contacted might be one of those.
But other than offering all of this help and you knowing it's there for you, I am not sure what else to do. Asking for help isn't something bad, nor you moaning. I am used to you, as you are. I accept you for all of your bad moments and good moments, so you "moaning" at me might be a perspective issue: I see it as a good thing, you might see it as a grumpy moment.
sharing with me things that you might think are Painful to hear for me or hard to say or admit to yourself shouldn't stop you from asking for help. getting this stuff our of your head and being in a trusting environment is good thing and the best thing you can do for yourself now.
I cannot help you if you won't let me. Just remember I have always been a friend to you first, before anything else. And that will never change.
