DAY 92
Last stretch of 100 happy days!
Date night at a Gin and Tonic festival. More than the alcohol, the food we had tonight was insanely good. This is live action Krabby Patty, people! Never thought soft shell crab would be this tasty without being drenched in sauce. SAW GOOOOD
We also got to try some of Bangkok's best gin and tonic versiosn and steal some really fancy gin bottles I plan to use as vases in my apartment which leads me to...
DAY 93
| bar cart peg |
In my many years of living independently, I never had a bar cart and having one has been an adulting goal that I want to achieve ever since. It just makes me feel so sophisticated to learn about mixology than to just get wasted in a bar from cheap alcohol (which I still do sometimes). It also make me stay in more and host more intimate parties which is my idea of having fun these days.
I kid you not, I have one Pinterest page about bar carts and have also watched tons of DIY bar cart videos on YouTube. As soon as we finish this, I'm seriously hosting a party to brag about it.
I am absolutely enjoying living alone. Sometimes I would just stare at the balcony like it's a meditative prayer of some sort. Ah home. This must be the place ;)
DAY 94
I went to the N-PEACE exhibit tonight and in an unexpected turn out of events my favorite Professor was there! I used to assist in the organizing of this awards program and it's great to see former UN colleagues and Cindy Bishop. BUT I did not expect my professor to be there at all!!
That really made me happy. This particular professor is the first person who I felt genuinely believed in me. If you knew me during college, I was a shit student. I withdrew from school pretty bad but then she showed up, my guardian angel in the form of a peace professor and feminist who mentored me even when I was reluctant and clearly wasn't ready for greatness. She just put me out there in the race tracks and cheered me on until I finished the race. Sometimes I feel that it was her support that got me through everything because unlike myself, she really believed in my potential. She really did and the thing about having someone genuinely believe in you, is it influences you to do so whether you like it or not. But more than that, she made believe that everything I do is worth something because it is for the greater good. And although sometimes, work can be very disheartening, she always reminds me that what I have done is enough and there will be opportunities to do good and make the world a little more bearable for everyone.
I have been surrounded by a lot of successful people in my life but they rarely radiate character and humility that makes their success seem superficial. Every time I think about that, I get this sense of relief knowing that I could have been like them except that I am very lucky to have had mentors that have more progressive understanding of the world and a life well-lived.
That really made me happy. This particular professor is the first person who I felt genuinely believed in me. If you knew me during college, I was a shit student. I withdrew from school pretty bad but then she showed up, my guardian angel in the form of a peace professor and feminist who mentored me even when I was reluctant and clearly wasn't ready for greatness. She just put me out there in the race tracks and cheered me on until I finished the race. Sometimes I feel that it was her support that got me through everything because unlike myself, she really believed in my potential. She really did and the thing about having someone genuinely believe in you, is it influences you to do so whether you like it or not. But more than that, she made believe that everything I do is worth something because it is for the greater good. And although sometimes, work can be very disheartening, she always reminds me that what I have done is enough and there will be opportunities to do good and make the world a little more bearable for everyone.
I have been surrounded by a lot of successful people in my life but they rarely radiate character and humility that makes their success seem superficial. Every time I think about that, I get this sense of relief knowing that I could have been like them except that I am very lucky to have had mentors that have more progressive understanding of the world and a life well-lived.
DAY 95
For some reason, this week is just sooo good with timing. After seeing my mentor, I got a message from my former Karenni intern who told me she has been accepted for a scholarship and will be studying in the Philippines soon. I was also very surprised when she told me I was the person who inspired her the most. YES. ME. Who would have thought, right? That a highly anxious ball of negativity who struggles with her self worth can actually bring out the best in other people?
Needless to say, that message made my day.
Yesterday I was talking about being mentored and how much that has affected the life I am living and now, I am the one doing the mentoring! Oh how the tables have turned!
I am equally shocked and proud of myself knowing that I have touched someone's life to the point of transforming it for the best. And this feeling was so electric that it even affected my gait and the way I handled boring conversations. I can actually die tomorrow knowing I have made the world better at least for one person. Rie, your life is not that bad at all. The world is worth all your effort to change it. Now it's time to believe in yourself more.
