I’m going to try something new in a few days and I’m still conflicted about it. I’ve wanted to do it for 3 years but either kept changing my mind or wasn’t really supported. And I can see why no one really encouraged me because in one sense it’s a really Dumb Idea but in another, it’s just a thing that you try – really, it’s about perspective. And my perspective says it’s a dumb idea but I still want to do it. You would think if I hadn’t bothered for years I’d get over it. Seeing as I haven’t forgotten, I’m assuming I still want to do it. But then again, I’m not telling you what it is. So am I really interested in still trying? Probably, I’m just afraid of commitment. I keep thinking I’ll chicken out so I’d rather not make it official. If it happens, it’ll happen and I’ll show you guys.

And if I start, I won’t stop till the end of the month because I’ve become more determined to start this it because of that something happening at the end of the month but I don’t want to wait that long because by then I won’t care as much. Plus, I’ll have slightly more experience so it would be nice to be better at it by then.

You know?