Day 25

My positives

I woke up this Morning in a better frame of mind compared to the previous few days and that was my first positive of the day. After my breakfast i took my dog out to the beach and it was there i found my second positive, it was really mild and the sun was shining and my dog was really enjoying herself, this made me enjoy my walk all the more! I actually had a third positive today and that was the fact that i’ve got an appointment to discuss a group therapy session that is starting soon, i’ve waited 8 months so far! So as far as my daily positives go i’ve had a pretty successful day.

Camping for Calm pt2

I’ve mentioned in a previous post about heading off somewhere on your own to try and calm your mind and as i was out walking this afternoon i remembered how i felt when i went somewhere new, either on my own or with my family. Everytime i went somewhere new i got a feel for the place, it doesn’t have to be the most attractive of destinations but i remember the feeling i used to get when i was there, for instance i can remember body boarding in the sea at Porthcurno in Cornwall it’s a stunning place and i can remember standing in the sea waiting for the next wave and i had a feeling of calmness and freedom and it was raining at the time but there was a nice breeze and it had a very spiritual feeling about it, i felt that i was in charge of my destiny and i didn’t care what anyone else thought, it was as if i was being energised by doing something that i wanted to do and not living my life how other people think i should live it. This is why i highly recommend anyone who is suffering from depression and anxiety to head off somewhere on your own and don’t be scared to do things that you want to do, there won’t be anyone there to judge you and you’ll feel like a free spirit, calmness and relaxation will be a massive help especially for the anxiety but being on your own and away from everyone and the places that you associate with your depression will help to calm you. I think we worry too much about what other people think and we feel we have to justify everything we do, well we don’t and doing something such as camping to get away from it all is just the thing to help you realise!

My Mind Today

Today was a better day, i found a few positives which really shocked me as i really didn’t expect it! As the day went on i was still in a better frame of mind, i enjoyed my walk on the beach this morning and i also enjoyed my walk in the woods this afternoon. It’s been a pretty chilled day to be honest, not much in the way of negativity and so far as i type this i’ve had no suicidal thoughts! I don’t know whether that is down to the fact i’ve had chilled day or whether it’s just a little respite until it starts again but i’ll take it none the less.

The beach this morning