I can't kick myself for not preparing enough. How can I remind myself of this?It hard to compensate for forgetfulness when it's met with defensiveness. It may annoy my spouse but I find… Read More

My first real week before school and I"m excited, nervous and genuinely positive and enthusiastic.Big things are coming our way. My kids' future is bright!I suppose this is wear the OCD is a… Read More

Today I lost a person that wasn't close to me but was a part of my life.He was a colleague and although we weren't besties, we spent a good portion of our worklife working together.His work… Read More

There is a pet peeve I have. I don't like to go to bed with the kitchen a mess. I prefer to have the sink clean before I go to bed.When I cook, which is 80% of the time, this is done.When my… Read More

I am spent. I am tired. I am hurt. I want to just ball myself and cry. I feel alone. Why? Am I strong? I feel weak. I feel tired. I feel alone. Yet I must suppress and remain strong for… Read More

Is it ok to feel hollow?Is it ok to just sit in a dark corner of my stump and just be?I want love. I want shelter. I want protection even though I don't need it. I want someone to want me so… Read More

I’ve spent the today and most of yesterday in a haze.I don’t know how to get out of it. I feel like a doll with vacant eyes.I know it shows.I don’t try to pretend.Will… Read More

I wish he still wrote me love letters.I wish to feel the safeness of being intertwined.I have a hole.It’s this emptiness feeling that doesn’t go away with food.It’s a sadne… Read More

Stop asking "if you can do me a favor." You are not asking for a favor. It's not like it's your responsibility and you are asking for a favor. You tell and you say, I need you to. There… Read More

You ever getting into an argument with someone and they turn it into a psychological analysis of your person?I'm in a point where it seems everything I feel is turned on me and what I feel i… Read More

Just deal with it. What if I don't want to just deal with it?What if I want someone to talk to?What if I want someone to not give me answers but hold my hand?I'm not looking for validat… Read More

Is it fair? Forget about fair or right. I know that degrees of tolerance will cause a person to action and or batshit craziness. Yesterday I worked from 9am-10:30pm. I came ho… Read More

When you start something with, I don't mean to criticize, you can pretty much guess, you mean to criticize Read More

I was looking for someone opposite me. To have the traits I so wished I had. To be self confident. To be self assured. To be less anxiety prone. What I need is someone who will compleme… Read More

I don't know how much more supportive I can be. You say I'm not but all I do is to try to be supportive. I don't feel the need to announce my doings. What is a cry from you for help is… Read More

When we go away it's usually a much needed event. But for this mom going away means that I'm responsible for planning, packing, figuring what to do, cooking, coordinating the day and sw… Read More

I know spouses are supposed to scaffold and support but when one feels as if she's scaffolding more than the other it gets tiring. I know God gives us talents and we need to use those t… Read More

I'm beat. As part of our exploration of our city fun and because he's in love with Christoph Neimann's Subway, we took a ride to 23rd via the 1, 2, 7 and F. Boy howdy did DS love i… Read More

Had a terrible nightmare DD was at a pizzeria by herself and I had no clue which one it was to get to her. Someone said she was at DD's pizzeria, a place I never heard of and as I was r… Read More

So tired. Feel empty and blank. Figuring the next five weekends would be ridiculous with events and to dos and taking the rain as a sign to take it easy I planned a day of relaxing… Read More

Can it always be in my head? If that were true, then do I need professional help?What about everyone else who you have advised to seek professional help? Either we all truly need h… Read More

I feel like shutting down again.  Read More

I came home from a very long day at work at 9pm. I was exhausted. I had only eaten a small meal all day. I have had chest pain sort of like heartburn since the night before. I think I’… Read More

Maybe it's that he wants me to focus on him again. Before kids he was my focus. After kids not so much. If I spend more time doting on him maybe things will be better. Spent last n… Read More

I said I love you today. He didn't respond.Is he out of love for me?He did kiss me yesterday when I returned home.He even sat next to me on the couch. I watched a show while he surfed and re… Read More

When in a relationship there are certain things that one does that annoys the other person. But what if what makes a person who they are is what annoys the partner?Do you try to suppress it?… Read More

He didn't kiss me goodbye again today.  Read More

Afraid what will happen tonight. I'm optimistic that I will be able to sit with him and just be.On Sunday, Mother's Day I felt like he didn't want to hold my hand or be close to me. I g… Read More