I’ve begun doing a workout routine at home and my thighs are hurting from doing squats. Another part of my routine involves lying on my back and pushing my son into the air and lowering him back down for a kiss. He loves this Exercise, it’s a surefire way to get smiles and squeals of happiness out of the boy. It also seems to be a definite way to get him to spit up on me. I’m not entirely sure if it’s because I’m moving too quickly or what might be the root cause of the problem. The first time I did it was immediately after a feed so I started spacing the exercise longer and longer away from his bottles. It doesn’t happen every time we do the exercise, but it happens more than I care for. More research must be done on this because I love me some baby smiles and I can tell that it’s helping to build my arm muscles.

I’ve also started favouring my backpack style baby carrier over the stroller when we go for walks. Not only is it 10x quicker to get him ready to go out this way, but his added weight adds to the effectiveness of our walks in turns of calorie burn.

For the most part I’ve been avoiding weighing myself and focusing more on the way that my clothes are fitting. I’m worried that if I watch and track my weight too closely that I’ll become disheartened by the speed at which I’m losing weight. Since it’s still the early days of getting myself back on track it’s more important to focus on how on how I feel physically vs the actual number showing on the scale.

I’m working on changing my end goal from just being a base number like it was originally to just getting used to being in my own body again and to feel comfortable with myself. This is a lead factor in my decision with not weighing myself in constantly. I need to be able to accept the fact that I won’t be able to invest myself solely into my weight loss journey. As important as it is to me to lose the weight, it’s even more important that I can be happy with who I am.

My decision to make sure I’m happy with myself is why I started figuring out some exercises that I can do at home with my son. It’s also the reason why I’ve started taking steps to make myself feel more like me. I took the time to strip the faded colour out of my hair and dye it purple, as well as getting rid of my lovely PCOS induced facial hair.

This journey isn’t something that’s going to happen overnight, there’s a lot more steps involved to figuring out what I can do with my time and resources and continuing to figure out what I need to do to reach a place where I am satisfied with myself. It’s going to be a Challenge and if there’s anything that I know that I enjoy, it’s taking on a new challenge.