Apparently, I've had a thing for fancy shoes and big shades from a very early age. Aren't these great! My mom sent them to me this afternoon, photos of little me that I had never seen. And it appears I get my sense of style from her - who else's closet and purse would I have been raiding so young?
My big competition is just 2 days away. The training is done, I have tomorrow off work to take care of last minute appointments (hello, spray tan!) and a bit more posing practice, and I find myself with a little bit of downtime at home this evening. A luxury these days.
I've pushed myself in so many ways these past couple months, physically and mentally, and while I might not be able to technically say that I've loved every minute of it, I kind of have loved every minute of it.
Physically, I'm in near-peak condition. I honestly didn't believe I'd ever get my legs to look like they do today. Ever. I'm as healthy and as fit as I've ever been in my life. While I may not want to walk around quite this lean and muscled every day, I now see just what I can do with my body (what we can all do with our bodies), with the right knowledge, discipline, and determination.
Mentally, I've surpassed the level of discipline and determination I knew I had. I've always been pretty focused when I wanted to be, but this took EVEN MORE!
And I'm pushing my boundaries, my personal comfort levels. Being in the gym, training, I'm comfortable with that. Showing it off in the way I must on Saturday, that's a stretch for me. And putting myself in the position of being judged like that, officially, also a stretch.
As of this moment, the excitement has surpassed the nerves. I anticipate they'll return in force in the next 48 hours, but I think I've got the wherewithal to get through them.
I'll let you know how it goes!
