I am writing once again and it seems it is more a matter of necessity than that of release. I am a self-proclaimed monk. I have made some personal vows to myself and I am still here still monastic and faithful to myself. The vows which I have taken are also a testament to my personal Beliefs about this life whatever it may bring. I live by a simple code and that is to thy known self be true. It revolves around being honest with oneself enough to admit that mainstream faith in all its wisdom is nothing more than a book of lies. Allow me to clarify why it is such a thing that I believe. Firstly I believe in Jesus Christ that doesn't mean that I believe the Bibles account of his life. It doesn't mean that I subscribe to Judeo-Christian superstitions. I believe that Jesus Christ is my ultimate aim of achievement, it is the destination to which I aim. In my mind the Christ mind is the pinnacle of enlightenment. 

I watch the news every day and apart from poor journalism and opinion pieces that come to light the majority of the world’s conflict seems to arise from one group of people adamantly believing that they represent the will of God or some other superiorly over another. All I can say to what I see is that this world is deluded into believing that God has some presence in this universe. Now I realise that many of my words are strange to read and even more difficult to believe, however, I am not pushing a belief system of any kind, what I am doing is journaling my spiritual development from an un-enlightened state to one less ignorant than when I set out. It seems to me that everybody thinks that God is on their side. I say to those people there is no God here well not the God that they believe in. 

I see that the world is totally messed up, it is quite literally an asylum that is run by the insane. But according to my beliefs what we see is quite literally what we are. My concerns are all based on the same thing and that is, that an unexamined life is not worth living. I have spent a considerable amount of time examining my beliefs looking for contradictions and though there are some they do not pose any problems for me at the present moment, though they will need resolving at some point. It is a difficult road to walk when all roads lead back to the world. My disappointment stems from my own progress it seems that life keeps getting in the way. The way that I look at life and spirituality is a game of snakes and ladders.