Different relationships serve different outcomes on your journey, yet all with the same aim of taking your mind back to God. The way it does this is up to you and your readiness. Remember; when the student is ready the teacher appears.
This is worth considering, we are all each other’s teachers and students at the same time.
Do not feel guilty as you progress because you left another, having gotten all you could from the exchange and especially if the nature of the learning was negatively geared, you pulled apart and went separate ways.
Although this can be seen as rejecting the person to get rid of the problem, this is not always the case.
We can leave dysfunctional relationships hurt, shattered, angry, etc, yet if we hand them over to His Holy Spirit, He will take what we have given Him and teach us – if we are willing.
Turmoil amongst brothers is not always rejection of Christ. We project the angst and anger, upset and fear we feel from our own separation from God onto those around us.
This keeps happening until we see, through His Holy guidance – for it will not be recognised without it – that all we are ever doing is projecting.
I project onto you what I see as your fault’s and flaws from the split in my own mind and its fear of the darkness into which I went when leaving my home.
And even though there may be ego evidence to support the judgement of another, now as Christ servants, we need to look deeper into what we are really doing when we critique another, and accept we have separated ourselves from God the Father and our judging and criticising is part of that separation.
We fear to look within for what we may see, what we have made away from the Light, yet that is all it can do to us, make us fearful. In order to avoid what we have made of ourselves away from Him, we must see its ugliness and abandonment in those we meet instead. For it is far easier to see another's failings first.
When we encounter another who ‘rattles’ us, do not try and work out why, but instead, remind yourself that this particular body you have claimed as proof for your belief in your separation from the Father, from home. Pray, now, and ask the Holy Spirit; take this sight I have made and replace it with Your own, returning both my mind and heart into the hands of Christ and to the task of remembering who I am.
It is at odds with the world this view, yet it is one you are capable of holding, simply because you elect to.
Until you see that the separation has only ever occurred within you, you will keep projecting it outside of yourself, onto bodies devoid of any actual meaning, other than that which we give them.
As service workers, all healing begins at home.
Reconcile your relationship with God and all other relationships will begin to reflect this. As we begin to withdraw from ego-centred relationships and focus on our Christ connection, we realise we cannot have constancy in Truth and both.
You begin to live with less fear, even fearlessly, and the more Christ quietude you allow into your daily activities, the easier it is to feel His presence and stay in it.
Remember this quote;
Before enlightenment: chop wood carry water
After enlightenment: chop wood carry water
Eventually, it will not matter what you do as you will be able to do it in His presence, even guided by His hand.
But first, we must chop wood and carry water with Him.
Specialness is of the ego, but humility is for the service worker and necessary for Him to be known to us. We want for no ego notoriety or recognition – we desire only to know ourselves completely in His peace and feel His love run through us, making us the channel we are destined to be, if not already.
That is all, yet is that more than enough for those of us who truly seek to serve and know the Christ life actively. Amen.
