This week Ricki Lake lost her ex-husband to bi-polar disorder.  In a statement to the press, she said that at least he was finally at Peace.  I was taken aback by this statement because so many people say it about loved ones who suffer from mental illness when they die, even if they take their own lives. It knocks the wind out of me because I know what it is like to feel that death is the only way to peace.  I lived with the deep-seated ache of Depression from childhood.  You blame yourself for being so different and that anger gets directed at you more than the world you want so desperately to fit into.  And while I was not bi-polar, the depression and anxiety that plagued me created its own kind of rollercoaster for me. But I was immensely blessed to meet Jesus Christ right out of college.  I know that if that had not happened, I would likely be dead by now.  But in Christ Jesus I found the peace I ached for, I would have died for but ironically, I did have to die.  I died to the world, to my old life, to depression and […]