Some days amaze me more then others, and today was one of them. In all this time feeling like God has Left me I have Realized this, I am dumb and God never leaves he just goes silent. I of course realized this today as I was choking on the Eucharist. I can not even begin to explain why I started choking because honestly it is one of those you had to be there moments. I don't take the Eucharist lightly but as I was kneeling  with tears rolling down my eyes I realized "yep God exists, and I really hope killing me is not his way of showing he never left me!" Sometimes I think of God as the ultimate parent............. you know the one everyone wants to have? But then sometimes when I get smacked I realize he gets aggravated too! :)
Then as if to say he was sorry for trying to kill me today, he gave us the most amazing skies tonight with so many rainbows I almost started believing in Leprechauns, then as if that wasn't enough, my Sista told me I was right on more than one case and I started looking for the unicorns dancing in the rain!
I guess the point of all of this is that after darkness there is ALWAYS light, it's not a dream and God loves us! NO MATTER WHAT!!! WAKE UP............. smell the roses and remember God comes to us in ways we need him too. Sometimes dressed in polo shirts, sometimes in a rainbow in the skies! Keep you eyes out and see where you see Him!