I knew this was going to be hard. I had glimpses of how much of a challenge this was going to be. But Jesus, I didn't know it was going to be this hard. This painful. I had no idea how agonizing it was going to be to feel this isolated. This is one heck of a cup, this chalice of yours. Never, since following you, have I struggled so much. Jesus. I wonder if I had known, would I have