I became intersted in Meditation around 4 years ago back when I was in high school. I considered myself affiliated with a religion back then. I was a super secular person, I never prayed or attended any kinds of prayers or ceremonies. I started meditation expecting it would make me realize things that i was never aware of.

For a couple years I was meditating on and off. I would meditate for a week straight 10 minutes each day, and I would never meditate again for months. I was being distracted and I somewhat forgot I used to meditate.

Meditation (being alone with my mind) made me question the existence of a higher being. I was asking questions like "What is the purpose of my life?" or "What is the purpose of "life" in general?" This led me to researching and eventually becaming an atheist.

A couple years ago I became interested in meditation again, I used a guided meditation app for days or even months. I meditated once a week for a year or so, then it happened.

One night when I was laying down in my bed the realization of the inevitiblity of Death and how one day i will cease to exist hit me like a brick. It caused a panic attack.

This happened around once a month or so since. But I am not here to ask medical help, I am here to ask a more important question.

People who had issues with death, fear of death; what different ways of thinking helped you? Which path did you follow? How did you make peace with death?

Thank you, hopefully i am not alone...