It wasn’t until I was 13 that I started having these weird feelings that I couldn’t explain.  My father passed away when I was young and my mom suffered with depression for years after.  I would start avoiding my mom’s room because every time I would walk in there I would feel overwhelmed with sadness.  When I was 14, friends of the family came to visit, and when I gave her a hug I had a feeling that she was pregnant.  Later that day, when I was able to talk to her alone, I asked her if she was pregnant.  I’ll never forget the look of shock on her face when I asked, and she told me that she only found out she was pregnant 3 days earlier. 

I have known when people have cancer before they were diagnosed, before a heart attack, before they died.  Living with this is very difficult, but I’ve found that living in a small town has helped me out a lot with my “problem.”  

As I am typing now, I am lounging on the couch Watching my secret obsession, reruns of Dr. Quinn.  Growing up, my mom and I watched this show together every week.  I loved the show and was always so excited for the next episode.  Watching it now, I sometimes laugh at how corny the acting sometimes is.  Even though I do like Jane Seymour, in Dr. Quinn, she has the same expression for everything and sometimes it’s just plain weird.  

I also realized today that I am going need warmer clothes.  The weather is Oklahoma is schizophrenic, one day it may be 30 degrees then the next it’s in the 70’s.  That means tomorrow, after I get my work done here, it’s off on a shopping adventure.  Hopefully I’ll find enough clothes to keep me toasty warm this winter.  I do love sitting in front of a fire, but I can’t bring my horses inside to enjoy it with me.

Well, I guess that’s all for today, but stay tuned for more tomorrow.