Diary Entry: Sunday August 5, 2001
Right so I think the whole thing with Derek is all good. Yay! He called me at like 3 this morning and said that he was going to come out a little after Brandon called him but then he passed out. He went into his room in the first place because "Brandon and I were getting all clique-y and he didn't want to get in the way." So we talked about that then he asked me to come back over like ten times! Then I called him when Luke and I got home from "church." I told him that there was no way I was about to do anything with Brandon because I don't like him, I like Derek and I told him that too. Then I was saying I was just confused because I didn't know what he wanted. Then HE said that he doesn't even know what he wants but he does know that he doesn't want a girlfriend. Whatever. I think I should call and apologize for being bitchy. Hmm. I don't want to be annoying and call him but he did say he would call me later. Here goes...
Today's Thoughts: How am I still wasting my time with this loser? Clearly I was a lot more insecure back then. And while I'm still prone to over analyzing things I like to think that I am not quite as obsessive as I was here. Or at least I don't act on it as much...
Right so I think the whole thing with Derek is all good. Yay! He called me at like 3 this morning and said that he was going to come out a little after Brandon called him but then he passed out. He went into his room in the first place because "Brandon and I were getting all clique-y and he didn't want to get in the way." So we talked about that then he asked me to come back over like ten times! Then I called him when Luke and I got home from "church." I told him that there was no way I was about to do anything with Brandon because I don't like him, I like Derek and I told him that too. Then I was saying I was just confused because I didn't know what he wanted. Then HE said that he doesn't even know what he wants but he does know that he doesn't want a girlfriend. Whatever. I think I should call and apologize for being bitchy. Hmm. I don't want to be annoying and call him but he did say he would call me later. Here goes...
Today's Thoughts: How am I still wasting my time with this loser? Clearly I was a lot more insecure back then. And while I'm still prone to over analyzing things I like to think that I am not quite as obsessive as I was here. Or at least I don't act on it as much...
