The evening was drawing near. Dishes were being placed in the sink and the low hum of the television could be heard in background. Nothing seemed out of the norm. In fact one could say things were looking up. The blight on the house or my grandmother as she was known to others, was finally gone. No longer would the people living in this house be afraid of outburst, attacks either verbal or physical. I was trying to let the good fortune sink in. It's been awhile since I had cause to feel at ease. Once I had finished my last ounce of gaming online I decided to head to bed. I climbed into my bed, and rested my head against the pillow. My eyes got heavy as the world faded down and the lights went out.
To awake from sleep for me isn't always the same. Each time it's different. That's not to say that there are some patterns of reanimating. But this time was just a normal one. But the reality around me was a little different. That is to say the power was gone. You never really know how much you depend on something till that something is removed. For me it was not having power for almost three weeks. The cause was my Grandma. When she stayed with us she had agreed to pay the electricity. My family had agreed to pay everything else. Not known to my parents she had run up a $2700.00 bill. Had they known they would have taken over. When my Grandmother left she found another place and said to the power company that she wasn't responsible for the bill at her old residence. So the power went out. We couldn't turn it on till the bill was payed. Which we didn't have. So for three weeks we stayed cold, candle lit, and only the dark to keep company with the woes in our heads.
But no matter how hard things got, God was with us. To me it didn't feel like it. At the time it seemed that the world was coming at me full force. I was wondering if I had become the new Job. We had to make a tough call. Either wait out in the house we've lived in for a month and the bill would go to Grandma like it should of or move. We finally choose the second one.
Moving was a week long event but God blessed us with the house and help and support. I'm trying to get back in the routine that I used to but I feel like what one man said you can't eat the dinner if your not at the table. I feel like I need to go find the table. Not wait for delivery. So I feel a change coming. So in short that's were I have been and not on. Praise God for his goodness and grace for a wretch like me.
