Nobody knows what people with Asperger's Syndrome go through. They have no idea what it feels like to see the world in a different light. One day you are looking through a looking glass, focusing on what is inside. The next day you are like a lost puppy who cannot seem to remember where their home, even though their home happens to be right in front of them. Some days are different than others. On the good days, you can show a glimpse of hope when it comes to socializing with people, and you come out of your small inner shell into the world and feel comfortable with the ones around you. On the bad days, you do not want to get out of bed, and want to stay in your bedroom and not move a muscle and just play on your laptop and watch television. You are so focused on your "restrictive interests" that you forget who you are effecting around you. Your relatives and friends want to spend time with you but you can't read emotion well and you cannot understand what a person wants and so it frustrates them, but since they know you, they know what will set you off on a tantrum, so they cannot tell you what you have done to affect them. Asperger's Syndrome is a demon, and it takes over the membrane and destroys your social life, and makes you feel like you do not belong in the world. There being no cure, there being no solution, just makes you wonder even more if you really want to continue on. Depression, anxiety creeps in day by day until you think about checking out. Knowing you just have to fight it and keep on coping, you realize that your "restrictive interests" as well as your Asperger's is what makes you who you are. It defines you and over time you learn to deal with it. The syndrome makes you go through hoops and bounds emotionally, affects certain relationships and makes you unable to trust people, but in the end you realize who you truly are and you eventually accept yourself.