Is it so awful that I just want to know why?

I’m Tired of feeling like I’m this awful person and it makes me look crazy and stupid and everything else bad because I’m hurting and I just want to know why. Why can’t people just be honest? You’re going to look like a cock from time to time but if you plan on being one you better deal with people thinking you’re one.

*sigh*

I’m just tired of feeling like this is always my fault.

I’m tired of feeling anything.