Seeems like my life is stuck in a loop of Pain and misery with the same mistakes being repeated over and over as i learn once again that a woman can't be trusted.
for the second time in a row promises mean nothing and lying to me comes as being commonplace, when these women who confess one thing and make me grand promises have no respect for me and so at the first chance possible drop their underwear to get satisfaction with whoever is closest and suitable enough to meet necessary requirements.
I have trusted and been betrayed again the worst part is the fact the second knew how badly it affected me with the first and still did it and only gave themselves away by a chance comment.
I doubt i will ever forgive them and i know for certain that nothing is forgotten, nothing is ever forgotten seems pointless in worrying as neither appear to care about the pain they have caused or to seek for forgiveness justifying it in their own ways, though it appears to have happened a while ago it is only now i find out, i really hate june everything bad happens in june no wonder i hate my birthday.

The saving grace though is that we had drifted apart, probably due to the way she reacted to me, possibly guilt who knows but i moved on and moved on for the better.
Though there is one who never kept a promise who betrayed my trust and openly lied to me there is another now, one who has never broken a promise who has made me feel needed and loved who has done such wonderful things for me just because it's what she wants to do one who despite the pain i have felt with the past 2 and the betrayed trust one who i trust with my heart and with my love for i know deep within she would never treat me the same and i only hope i convey how much i love her.
There are those who have no trouble betraying and hurting people just for their own desires to be fulfilled and there are those filled with love who wish to make anothers life meaningful and i know that "C" brings meaning to my life and a reason to try and believe that there are good people out there and i pray that i never lose her, as to the others let them never be fulfilled in the way they wish and let them reap what they sow for in this life things would be better if we lived for each other and not just for our own pleasures.