Who am so and why am I Writing this blog?
I am a man in my 30s. I live in Finland. My life have been a roller coaster...and I mean it.
In my childhood I was a very wild kid. Growing up I became more shy and introvert. Then came a part in my life when something happened to me. I became a social happy person. I loved life and what I had to give. But after a few years my life started getting more hard and obstacles came one after one. I started feeling bad. My dad died and I think a part of me died with him. I started eating and buying. It became a problem and that’s i what I am stuck in now.
I have failed in work, I have failed in my economy and I have failed in my health. I wake up with anxiety and chest pain almost everyday and go to sleep with the same feeling.
I am a man in my 30s. I should be stronger and braver, but deep inside me I just want to hide and cry. I don’t feel like a man.
This blog is more of a diary for me, but at the same time I think it can be as a help for someone’s who have the same problem, to know that you are not alone.
Sometimes I write in English and sometimes in Swedish. It all depends on in what kind of mood I am in.
What i noticed today after writing my first diary is that it was a big relief for my anxiety. My fear of bankruptcy is still there and my fear of not getting a job soon is there, but in some way it requires helped me for writing that small thing.
I am a man in my 30s. I live in Finland. My life have been a roller coaster...and I mean it.
In my childhood I was a very wild kid. Growing up I became more shy and introvert. Then came a part in my life when something happened to me. I became a social happy person. I loved life and what I had to give. But after a few years my life started getting more hard and obstacles came one after one. I started feeling bad. My dad died and I think a part of me died with him. I started eating and buying. It became a problem and that’s i what I am stuck in now.
I have failed in work, I have failed in my economy and I have failed in my health. I wake up with anxiety and chest pain almost everyday and go to sleep with the same feeling.
I am a man in my 30s. I should be stronger and braver, but deep inside me I just want to hide and cry. I don’t feel like a man.
This blog is more of a diary for me, but at the same time I think it can be as a help for someone’s who have the same problem, to know that you are not alone.
Sometimes I write in English and sometimes in Swedish. It all depends on in what kind of mood I am in.
What i noticed today after writing my first diary is that it was a big relief for my anxiety. My fear of bankruptcy is still there and my fear of not getting a job soon is there, but in some way it requires helped me for writing that small thing.
