Last time I posted I was still in a Relationship with a Tunisian man, living in Budapest, trying to be happy tho with struggles. Now my life has turned upside down.. At the end of June, 2017 with a lot of tears and realization that I do deserve better than a cheating, disrespectful man – me and him broke up after over 2 years of relationship. I left. It was so weird to be alone at first after such a long time but then I was really happy to be single. Altho in the back of my mind I was a little bit down because all my friends were in relationships and I thought why I am pressured by society to have a man? That’s nonsense. So I was okay. Then a guy that I met online through mutual friends and he asked me out but I said NO. Why? Well, It has been only less than a month since I came back home and I wanted to stay single. Then I think I just got lonely seeing everyone having love and me being alone. So accidentely I met that guy and we re-connected, went out, had a lot of bumps (he’s one of those guys that have to be pushed to even go out, no romance – no nothin). We began dating in October, 2017. I put a lot an effort and it seemed like he was trying too. However, as time passed I got borred, he didn’t try enough and I just decided not to settle. I guess, as you get older you know what you want and what you don’t want in a relationship so you choose not to settle and keep on hoping for the better.
We have spent 4 month together, however as I am writing this post we just broke up. I broke it off. We were just too different. I wanted excitement, fun, romance – just being out there, not sitting at the house all day, feeling loved even with the little things. Didn’t need fancy gifts or flowers every day but little gestures would’ve been nice. On the other hand, he wanted staying home all day long, gaming, no trying to go on dates, being romantic or just trying to be more out there . Too different. Everything has changed. All of this makes me question how people fall in and out of love so quickly? One day it seems that everything is magical and few months later I just miss being alone. The matters of the heart are so mysterious.
What now? As far as love concerned, I will just try to get through life by myself – loose weight, eat better, be more active and social. Also, finally to get a job that I can stay on and be stable because lately I seem to be having only bad luck with getting back on track. I guess that’s what you get for being head over heels inlove and leaving your life behind for a guy who frankly didn’t really deserve that much.
I just hope that 2018 brings better things. Afterall, they say that 2018 will be the best year for Cancer Zodiac. Best hopes for the future.
That’s all for today,
xoxo, Aurelija.
