I was supposed to be unconscious or at least not able to remember any of this, but I told the doctor and those others in attendance not only when my pacemaker / defibrillator unit which was now implanted was first hooked up, and then I told them when it was updating, meaning downloading information to update its software package to the newest version. I think I told them it flashed the BIOS first too...but I'm not certain. I was also visiting the grand Council in the sky at the same time. You have to understand that ketamine Fentanyl and propanol are awful lot of heavy-duty drugs to be on and how on Earth I could possibly be somewhat coherent and mindful and of very lucid thought is almost Beyond imagination as well. LOL. I heard gasps every time I said these thibgs... and uttering like that is absolutely impossible how could I eat know the timing and how could he even be saying any of this or be awake or understand any of it. I explained the whole operation to them beforehand after the doctor said do you know why you're here, and I said yes and I can explain it to you precisely, which I proceeded to do to their shock in the basement. I never been so super focused and I'm already a quick study so you can imagine how quickly I studied all of this stuff on my smart friend from the hospital bed. They couldn't believe that I was even able to do anything I was able to do so you know go figure LOL

After my Crazy event in August one thing I can say is that I have never been so visual, or at least not since maybe early childhood. When you go through trauma you turn inward and everything becomes imagination and when DMT is released in the mind it's very easy to have a flood of it and become very visual. There are ways to achieve this but actually starving yourself for light for 7 days but most people will get crazy said it's not really suggested to try this without training, just training takes years so again... don't play with fire.

This has been such an incredible life and I am looking so forward to getting stronger as I am each and every day determined to live life to its maximum. I am going to get my life back now at long last after a couple of decades far away in ill Health.

I want to be careful and guarded and not overly optimistic but I want to look forward to a medical career in my mind where perhaps at long last there will be something that I will have to contribute to mankind that will leave an impression and offer life long and far after I am gone.

When I lost all faith in humanity, but never in God, Humanities lifted me to the heavens and brought me back to Earth. My life here restored that I never wanted to leave and have always loved so dearly.

It's truly okay when others depart. I promise they are at Eternal peace and you will be with them again. I promise you they know no pain anymore. The Life Energy we know transforms and where we go next is not an Earthly realm and therefore there are no words to describe these places. I went to these places in death and not through the medications above during my procedure. I was dead before my procedure and before those medications, so please do not be confused.

Science and medicine say perhaps it's all just chemicals of wash and just all a projection of the mind but tell me this, what is life?

You can say I'm crazy all you want, but I can guarantee you you not been where I have.

I believed in God beforehand and I believe in God after. I believe in there being just ONE. Not just one God just one God I refer to as 1, or ONE or UNITY. It's something that cannot exist here on Earth, yet. It exists in the next Realm. Some people called that next round of parallel universe oh, I find that quite acceptable by the laws of physics and through experience and through my own understanding and due diligence this far, but I am often wrong and therefore open-minded to the idea that there are other possibilities always and often multiple possibilities overlapping one another, sometimes not seen nor detectable, but definitely there.

What now do you think of Faith?

I had a Moment of clarity there that I knew exactly and precisely what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I was going to now work for this cardiologist. That Future Would soon come when my health would meet my career. Right now I'm working on restoring my health which is easily and Far and Beyond the most difficult Mountain I have ever had to climb, after resuscitation after death. I still can't believe it and it's been over 6 months ago. I'll probably kind of always think of this that way but it is my reality nonetheless. Please don't ever give up face and please don't ever not value all lives, especially those we think most lost. You only value life as much as you value the weakest life amongst yourselves.

I'm a very free spirit in the pursuit of happiness and I appreciate the angels that carry me. I don't know what to make of this world and my heart often aches but I'm glad to have each and all of you in my family tree.

I pray God May bless you each a thousandfold more than myself, as always question my worthiness. I appreciate the society that lifts me in my physical health today, a society that said leave fails a majority too often. May others know life such that I do again, healthful youthful vitality being restored. May we all be thankful.

Denominations make not Unity !

Do you only a cyborg See Me Now ???