I have, after 15 days, finally come to terms with my deplorable situation. Not to say that my dreams aren't still haunted. But I have accepted the inevitable fate that I am doomed to solitude once more.

But I am free. I can continue to live life properly. And the contributions of many must be acknowledged, people who prevented me from reaching that Ophelic state of madness and tided me through this storm. To all these, though most of them do not read this blog, you have my deepest gratitude. The existance of people like you is the very reason why the mental hospitals are not actually as full as they are meant to be.

I still wonder if you read this, if you have actually proved smarter than you actually appear to be. But I have no words left, and no more strength to cry any more. I cannot, shall not, will not interfere with any of your schemes. But I sincerely hope that yours was not as lasting as mine. All I can do now is to wish you all the luck in the world. You, who touched me with a light so mysteriously strong, may you live in happiness for the rest of your days. That you will no longer have to put on once more the facade of a fake smile, but continue smiling with joy that comes truly from the eternal bliss that you so deserve.

This is the last entry concerning this crap. I depart from this boat. I feel like I have survived one of the hardest tests life can deal; survived the onslaught of emotions only such delicious poison can deal...But at last, I am FREE...