I've met this person about a year ago, and ever since then, we've texted continuously until today. I must admit it has been a difficult day not talking to her. Yes, I might have fallen for her. She is my go-to person, and I just can't stop myself from telling her everything. The fact that I am more reliant on someone else than I am on my self-bugs me. Well, people are disappointing. In a generalised view, I don't think I should be this reliant on her. Today's been a bad day for me, but I smiled throughout the day because I realised the fact that, my Happiness is more reliant on her than myself. So I stopped talking to her to force myself to be happy by myself. Yes, I shouldn't stop talking to her all of a sudden which Is why I've reduced the volume of my texts and I can already feel the difference. My normal days usually include texting her, checking my phone continuously and waiting for her to reply so that I can reply back as soon as I could. Well, that changed today. I no longer checked my phone for her texts as much as I did on any other day. I wasn't waiting for her to reply to my texts.
Fighting yourself is quite difficult when you're used to doing something for a long time, but that is what this is about. Fight yourself, because you always know when you are doing something wrong. Happiness is your vessel in life, never let someone fuel it for you. Few walk with you till the end of the line but only you alone can cross it. Never be too dependent on someone else cause they too are busy with their lives. Don't make someone your only source of happiness cause one day when something happens and they ain't there for you anymore, hell is going to break loose for you.
Realise it before you lose control or this is going to be you one day:
Love, Love yourself more.
