When I think of Spring, I see myself driving down an old country road, The Beach Boys are on the radio, and I am gazing out into the freshly green pastures to witness the new foals trotting alongside their mothers. I hear the baby birds chirping and see the flowers blossoming on all the trees. Spring gives people hope, a promise that Winter is dead and your life can now flourish again.
The month of April rolls around every year and yet somehow it still manages to surprise me when it is here. I am generally so focused on my studies in the Winter that I somehow lose track of what seems to be my purpose in life. I tend to focus so intently on my work and keeping up with the day to day demands that it is not until Spring that I realize I need to stop and smell the roses! And I mean quite literally! School is coming to a close and Summer will soon be on its way and I am excited. I am excited for Summer night concerts and snow cones and delicious barbecues. I can not wait to go camping with my family and enjoy many hikes with Morley, (my puppy).
I’m sure I will write a post or two about my first year of college and all I have experienced, but for now I would like to focus on a topic that has been plaguing my mind lately, and that just so happens to be dreams. More so, life dreams.
You have to understand that ever since I can remember, I had a life plan. I knew where I wanted to be in a year, five years, and so on. I always knew where I wanted to end up and never questioned the process to achieve my highly ambitious goals. I obsessed over grades, colleges, and career choices. I filtered through many options before making major life decisions and often manifested over what if scenarios until it drove me mad! But lately I have been doubting my current life plan. The onset of Spring has allowed me to realize I have been going through the motions of such a drab life. No wonder i’m bored! I don’t see an end goal to all of my efforts, I slave away at life and feel as though i’m always gazing at an out of reach accomplishment. Well, no more!
You are only given one chance at life. With this life you have endless opportunities, such as, joining the circus as a trapeze artist, or becoming an archeologist in Egypt to study ancient Mesopotamia civilizations! With so many choices, many of us are left feeling overwhelmed and confused. Many times, people are not able to identify the difference between a successful life and a fulfilling one. I can’t claim to know all of life’s treasures, but dammit if I don’t want to find out! Call me a gypsy soul or a foolish millennial, but I want more out of this adventure we call life. I want to live.
With this mentality, many people will not understand your spontaneous ambitions and somewhat crazed view on life, but my mother always told me, “people too weak to follow their own dreams will always find a way to discourage yours”. Don’t allow shallow minds to disrupt your beautiful growth. I was once a little girl with a dream, and i’ll be damned if i’m going to disappoint her. Grab life by the balls, so to say, and fear nothing, but fear itself. Don’t look back. Embrace everything this life has to offer. If you seek a life of adventure and happiness, you can’t be halted by weak mentalities and toxic individuals.
Come on Kid, this is your dream!
Sincerely,
Your favorite millennial asshole
