I  sometimes feel that my life is spinning out of control

People I love are now the ones that I hurt the most

Underneath this jolly face is a plethora of emotions

Civil war of sentiments within me, my spiritual deconstruction

Jealousy leads to rage, anxiety ends with depression

Projecting everything into an uncontrollable aggression

Don’t know where this anger stems, don’t wish to know where it ends

Does this even end without causing a depressional descend?

Trust me when I tell you I don’t mean any of this.

This is not me by God even I don’t know who this is

Forgive my enigmatic emotions, my unpredictable rage

Please don’t consider this my life story’s last page