It’s never in the world going to happen, it’s never in the world going to happen, it’s never in the world going to happen.
It’s never in the world going to happen, it’s never in the world going to happen, it’s never in the world going to happen.
It’s never in the world going to happen, it’s never in the world going to happen, it’s never in the world going to happen.
It’s never in the world going to happen, it’s never in the world going to happen, it’s never in the world going to happen

Okay. Finally. A square once again. I can start now.

I’ve cleaned the living room table. It’s now my clean space. I’ve lined up all the things I need to clean. Let’s start with the straightning iron, then the blow dryer. Then Wash my hands. Okay, deep breaths Amelie. You can do this.

It’s not clean enough is it? The clot touched my shirt, didn’t it? No it didn’t. I better take a new clot and clean it again. Careful not to get the cord on the ground or on me, because then I have to clean it again.

Ok. Now the blow dryer. Finally. Two things done. What’s next? Yes, yes, the make-up brushes. Wash your hands.

I’ve lied out the paper towel. Run to the bathroom with my hands in a surgeon position, careful not to touch anything on the way. Oh no, a strand of hair blew onto my hands! No, Amelie, it’s fine. Is it? Yes. Ok.

One brush done, place it on the sheet to dry, careful not to touch anything. Second brush done, place it on the sheet to dry, careful not to touch anything. third brush done, place it on the sheet, careful not to touch anything. My back hurts, I need to sit down. No, Amelie. You have to finish so not to mess up the cycle.

Finally. All brushes done, what’s next? Wash your hands. Take of the bedding sheets and throw them in the washing machine. Alright, seems fairly easy doesn’t it? No, I’ll mess that up for you as well. Ok, the pillow and duvet are in the foot end of the bed. Carefully pull the sheet halfway off. The pillowcase is off, now put the pillow on the matress and be careful not to touch sheet with the clean pillow. Find the opening of the duvet cover and pull the duvet out and over to the clean site of the bed. Now roll everything together and put it in the machine, but remember to seperate it because it won’t get clean if it’s all jumbled uup together. Alright, done. Wash your hands.

Now wash the surfaces and the countertops, then wash the floor. Wash your hands. Everything with chlorine to kill the dirt. We don’t care about the bacterias, only the dirt. Wash your hands.

Perfect. Now, clean your phone. Wash your hands. Take out the trash. Wash your hands. I want to scream. This is for your own good. Fuck you. Do it!

Take off your clothes and put it in the machine. Set it to 60°. Wash your hands. I need to pee. Wipe four times, flush. Wash your hands. Yeah, I kinda get that. Good.

Time to brush my teeth. Take one sip of water and spit. Then take another one and swallow. Rinse your toothbrush, apply toothpaste, rinse again. I need my phone. Start the timer. I should never have read up on how I need to brush my teeth. Stupid me. Now you’re using it against me. Start the timer.

10 seconds outer side, 10 seconds inner side, 10 seconds on top, first quadrant.
10 seconds outer side, 10 seconds inner side, 10 seconds on top, second quadrant.
10 seconds outer side, 10 seconds inner side, 10 seconds on top, third quadrant.
10 seconds outer side, 10 seconds inner side, 10 seconds on top, last quadrant quadrant.

Rinse the toothbrush with cold water all over, and then in steaming hot water all over and then in cold water. I’ll put it next to the brushes, it’s clean there.

Rinse my mouth one time, rinse my mouth second time, one sip of water. Rinse my mouth one time, one sip of water, second sip of water. Okay, all done. Wash your hands.

Finally. A shower.

I need to get water all over my skin and hair. Then shampoo, then scrub the back of my ears twice, then the inner part of my ears twice. Rinse my hands. Then wash my ladyparts. Three times in the front, three times in the back. Repeat, repeat. Wash my hands.
Soap up all of my skin. Wash my hands. Rinse everything off. Apply conditioner, rinse my hands. Wash my face four times, and one for quality check (haha.) Wash my hands. Rinse everything off. I’m done.

I grab my towel and dry off. I’m finally free from this horrible day of the week you call sunday, but I call Mr. Satan’s playtime. He’s toying with me. I don’t like that.

Dry up. First my face, then my body, then my ladyparts and finally my hair. Find some comfy clothes. Wash my hands. Yeah, yeah, I know the drill. Apply moizturiser on my face. Wash my hands. Put on new beddings. Wash my hands? No, it’s clean. You can do this Amelie. Alright.

Dry my hair. Wash my hands.

Finally, done. I try to watch an episode of something, but soon enough the anxiety comes back. I close the laptop and scroll down my phone. It’s very late, I need to sleep.

Please don’t make me feel dirty for the rest of my life, Mr. Satan, I’m thinking. I promise I’ll do better tomorrow.

Disclaimer:
Bold text: Inner logical voice
Cursive text: Mr. Satan
The rest is only me

I want to address that Mr. Satan’s not a real person or voice to me. It’s just what I call the OCD part of my thoughts.

So, this has been a very disturbing day into my mind that is ridden with the cheerful disease we call OCD. Hope you liked it. I certainly didn’t.