July 11th 2018

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Thanks for stopping by to read my blog,todays' blog is more about self awareness. Its about me venting and you are more than welcome to join me.Ever since being a mum to two I have become more aware of my Body. I don't think I ever paid much attention to it before that. I didn't know that child birth does some drastic changes to your image. The disappearing waistline, the love handles, the stretchmarks and saggy pouch thats' always gets in the way of that nice slinky body hugging dress or tank tops its a disaster LOL. As if that's not worst,there is the whole pelvic exercises to help get tone things down below in case you sneeze or cough.. we wouldn't want to embarass ourselves with a lose bladder or continence issues do we..? And besides you want to be confident,the benefits of these pelvic exercises are:

improved bladder and bowel control.
reduced the risk of prolapse. ...
improved recovery from childbirth and gynaecological surgery (in women)
increased sexual sensation and orgasmic potential
increased coinfidence and boost morale.

Yes I said it, it is embarrassing but I am sure every mum can relate or maybe some. Did I also mention breastfeeding and its issues,the unneccessary leaks sometimes,but thank goodness for the genius out there who invented breast pads. I won't go much into breastfeeding I'll leave that for another blog.Its not easy being a mum and watching the social media show off mums who have just had babies and have already snapped back into a slim waist line and abbs.The pressure of losing weight has become an even bigger burden that drags you into you feeling down about your self image and feeling that you are not beautiful enough or sexy enough or fit enough. When doe sit ever end? Its a lot to take on especially for someone who hardly sleeps and is constantly woken up at 3am for feeds.

I don't think I was clever enough to ever read about the manual regarding the changes you go through before giving birth but I think it would be a good idea to know whats in store,to prepare you even mentally not to scare you. Personally I have had days that I have not been confident in my own skin, felt like an alien in my own body,still me but battling with these changes. My body, my meat suit has faced all challenges from giving birth. I have never been more aware of my appearance than I am now ever since I have housed two babies. I never paid attention to how flat my tummy was or how I had skinny arms and no hanging flabby arms that sway when you wave. That little pouch that is hard to get rid off, I must have forgotten to read the manual of a postpartum body. To those who are looking to have kids be forewarned,children are a blessing don't get me wrong but just be ready when you have them and know you are not alone.

I wake up sometimes and I can't look in the mirror and say to myself I am still beautiful. I may have some flabby bits but I am still me I haven't changed. My body clearly has evolved but not me. It's all good to want to lose weight, I know the media doesn't make it any easier, the postpartum mums who bounce back into shape easily make it even more harder but it is still good on them who lose the weight easily I will not hate, as its not such an easy journey for all of us and it is a whole lot of hard work.Share your comments what you have struggled with after having kids, Id love to hear your stories. Till next time...x

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