The change of view mentioned in the last post changed again, as it would, and not for the best. This is due to not meditating enough and being a moron.

                   This last week has been a very bad one for relationships, but very good for the heat. So really it's been the best of times and the worst of times. Last night I had far too much to drink and today was not a good day, but it's okay now.

                   Wednesday this week was a bit of a red letter day for the juju! More heat, more feelings of openness, etc. I was really happy with this and thought of how long ago it was that I read The Bliss of Inner Fire and wanted to practise this stuff. Wednesday was just different, as if my meditations had reached a different level.

                     Had news of a couple of deaths recently and though they weren't folk I knew well, it does make you think that you are no guaranteed the time. I need to stop drinking.

                     Anyway, I'm due down at the Samye Ling for a week from next Monday and it would be good to use that as a take off point for total sobriety from here on in. Well, I've said that before, but on the other hand, I haven't had any tobacco for nearly three years so it can be done!!

                     I took the top photie in Morningside last night. My friend Kate is in one of them. I visit here every Friday I can. The photies of the art work don't do it justice. Great exhibition in the Modern Art Gallery. What was the artist called again? An Indian guy called Rajid something.