Today I planned on doing another blog post, this time it was going to be about my favourite Yankee Candles but I have decided against it. When I first had the idea to start my blog I wanted it to be professional and helpful but today I had a really down day so I am deciding to write about it to let it all out and somehow (in my head) this is me telling someone about how I am feeling. Don’t get me wrong this isn’t going to be a long depressing post and I know this sort of thing might not even interest most of you, but for those of you that do read on and maybe feel the same way as me, I hope this helps you in some way.
So as a Teenage girl it has come to the time where I need to make a rather big decision and that is, what the hell I am going to do with the rest of my life. I have always felt like everyone around me knows what they want to do or what they are good at/interested in. But not me. I have never been musical, sporty or artistic and to be quite honest I’m far from the brainiac of my school year. So at the beginning of last year I needed to decide on something that I wanted to do, and fast. I decided to go into the field of science (bearing in mind I am not the most intelligent person) and this is still what I am aiming for for the time being.
It has only been the last couple of months where I have realised what I was EXTREMELY interested in and actually really knowledgeable in. And that is Youtube. I have been watching YouTubers such as Zoella, Tanya Burr, Pointless Blog etc.. for YEARS and it has only now hit me that that is what I have a real interest in and would love to do the same thing.I know I know, how many times have you heard someone say “OMG I want to be a YouTuber”. Well I suppose to you I am just another one of those people but to me this is a big deal as I am finally finding what I am good at and what I have a real interest in. Not many of my friends know about that side of YouTube, they just think its a site where they can watch music videos which is why I keep my fan girling and dreams of becoming a YouTuber to myself.
This is the part where you’re probably saying to yourself “well why the hell doesn’t she just start a channel? Its not that hard” WRONG!!!
I am so ridiculously passionate about YouTube that when the day comes for me to start a channel I don’t want anything to stop m, for example. There has been many people in my school/college that started a channel and people made fun of them so much that they were driven to remove all their videos (which drives me so mad that people are willing to destroy what others enjoy doing). Why should I feel like I can’t do it? is the question I ask myself everyday, and I know for a fact I am not the only teenager out there that feels the same way as me. So this is where I came up with a compromise, and that is that when I start university and move away no one will know me and I will have a chance to start fresh and being to work at my dream and hopefully one day be successful (and before anyone says it, no, I am not doing this for the money or fame. I just love it)
So i guess what I am trying to say is that even though we shouldn’t let others dictate what we want to do, the reality is that we do. And even though I know what I want to do, I will wait for the right opportunity because I am so passionate and serious about it, I want it to be the right time.
I am sorry about my little rant that was probably pointless but I just had to let it all out and hopefully if there is someone reading this and you feel the same way, just know you are not alone on this one, you just need to do what you want and find the right time.
