So, what has 2017 really been like for us? Well Noah has developed like crazy. He's learnt to walk, run, play all in one year and now he is getting better and better with his Talking, and just the fact that he's completely bilingual and understands two languages completely, and is still this good with his talking is unbelievable. I am probably the proudest mother out there. For me, the second half of this year was better than the first. I lost my grandmother, broke up with my boyfriend and struggled with my mental health. I've had several panic attacks, and days where it has been a struggle to get out of bed. But I decided to kick my own ass and pick myself up when I realised that nobody would do it for me. The days got brighter, and my heart got lighter. I ended my maternity leave by getting a great job at a daycare. I made many new friends and went for a much needed trip to Holland, and then London to visit my siblings. I may not be where I want to be in life, but the steps I've taken the past six months have taken me closer and now I can only grow taller to achieve great things.

What do I expect of 2018? I have high hopes for this year. Both for the world to heal and have less heartbreaking events, but also for myself to grow as an individual and become more secure in my own skin. My new years resolution is to take risks. Don't be afraid to take chances in life. I've already started and I have a lot of amazing and excited events to look forward to in the new year, but more of that later but I am over the moon excited about it. I have a good feeling about it, that this year is going to be my fucking year. That I am going to make myself happy again, and stand high, and most importantly, to never take anyones shit ever again!

But for now, I am going to pop open a Champagne bottle and wish everyone a very happy and peaceful new year!