This was me earlier this evening, except in my bed.
Hello D. W. D. I. Family!
I hope that everyone had a great day and a lovely evening!
Okay, have any of you all been so tired that you just could not do anything? Maybe not just physically, but just mentally or emotionally drained to the point where you just felt that just trying to do something would wear you out even more? Well, that was me today. I felt just physically and emotionally drained. I was physically drained because of the fibromyalgia. I believe it makes me more sensitive to cold weather and it makes me fairly miserable during the winter months because my muscles ache, my joints are stiff, and I feel even more tired than normal. I felt emotionally drained just from my (unsuccessful) job search and family stress (it is a LONG story but I will say that it is super important to NEVER, EVER allow anyone, even a family member, to discourage you or to keep you from being all that God has called you to be because of their own issues). All of this just seemed to combine today and I just felt exhausted. I managed to get out one more application, but everything after that was a no-go. I sat there wondering, "Should I keep going for certain jobs for which I am qualified? Should I aim for lower positions? Should I switch my profession all together after waiting so long to become licensed?"
I slept for a while and I am currently resting. I have also decided to try to find something in the Bible to study and apply to my situation. I think the following verses from Isaiah work:
Isaiah 40:6-8 -A voice says, “Cry out.” And I said, “What shall I cry?”“All people are like grass, and all their faithfulness is like the flowers of the field. The grass withers and the flowers fall, because the breath of the Lord blows on them. Surely the people are grass. The grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of our God endures forever.”
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Well, I am glad that God's word endures forever. That is always wonderful. People will fail you. You will fail yourself. Fortunately, God never fails any of us.
I will also say that I definitely feel like a blade of grass right now. I feel like God has tested me (and continues to do so) and the stresses of the world do take a lot out of me physically and emotionally. I also think that the stresses of the world make it more difficult for me to withstand God's "blowing." I think all of this causes doubt and shakes up my faith. I think I am at the point where I realize that God will work everything out in the end and it will be for my good and his glory. I am still grappling with turning over everything completely to God and letting him have his way in my life. I can honestly say that nothing has turned out the way that I thought it would. Not all of it has been bad/difficult/frustrating but I definitely feel like I am in a windstorm and have been in one for quite some time. I just think everything just kind of caught up with me today and appeared as exhaustion. I definitely feel like God has been blowing on a lot of people I care about as well and we are just all trying to bunch together to stay grounded and hold on. We will make it. You will make it. Why? Because God promises that he has plans to prosper us, not to harm us. He will NEVER put more on us than we can bare. He will NEVER leave us, nor forsake us. He will is with us so we should have NO FEAR. I think that remembering these promises helps make the "blowing" easier to withstand and makes my roots steadier.
I will also say that I definitely feel like a blade of grass right now. I feel like God has tested me (and continues to do so) and the stresses of the world do take a lot out of me physically and emotionally. I also think that the stresses of the world make it more difficult for me to withstand God's "blowing." I think all of this causes doubt and shakes up my faith. I think I am at the point where I realize that God will work everything out in the end and it will be for my good and his glory. I am still grappling with turning over everything completely to God and letting him have his way in my life. I can honestly say that nothing has turned out the way that I thought it would. Not all of it has been bad/difficult/frustrating but I definitely feel like I am in a windstorm and have been in one for quite some time. I just think everything just kind of caught up with me today and appeared as exhaustion. I definitely feel like God has been blowing on a lot of people I care about as well and we are just all trying to bunch together to stay grounded and hold on. We will make it. You will make it. Why? Because God promises that he has plans to prosper us, not to harm us. He will NEVER put more on us than we can bare. He will NEVER leave us, nor forsake us. He will is with us so we should have NO FEAR. I think that remembering these promises helps make the "blowing" easier to withstand and makes my roots steadier.
Your thoughts on any of this?
Well, I will get back to resting. I just wanted to share my thoughts on this and I hope that it encourages you all to keep on holding on! Take care and I will ttys!
Love,
CCC
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