Hello friends, life just sucks sometimes, you know? I realize there are people who are having a much worse time than I, that life has really sock it to them.
One thing I do know though is that others suffering doesn't make yours not important, just different.
If I was totally honest with myself-which usually I am-I've known for years this day was coming that is that my marriage is over.
I just can't don't want to carry this marriage any longer. I'm tired of feeling alone when I'm not suppose to feel that way. My mother once said you can feel lonelier with someone than without any one. And she's right.
For years I've made excuses for him, and I'm just tied of it. The fact that he leaves it all (the kids, house etc.) all up to me-hell he won't even call for information on something that's for himself, I have to do it. I'm just tired of raising another child.
Not once has he ever got out of his comfort zone to do something that needed to be done for the kids or I. He never stayed at the hospital with Gloria the many many times she's been in-not even so I could go home and shower, he's never been to any of the kids sports games or gone to watch them compete.
And never once has he taken care of me when I was sick, hell he won't even make me a cup of coffee. I could go on and on. It doesn't mater. The crazy thing is I numb. At least for now.
One thing I do know though is that others suffering doesn't make yours not important, just different.
If I was totally honest with myself-which usually I am-I've known for years this day was coming that is that my marriage is over.
I just can't don't want to carry this marriage any longer. I'm tired of feeling alone when I'm not suppose to feel that way. My mother once said you can feel lonelier with someone than without any one. And she's right.
For years I've made excuses for him, and I'm just tied of it. The fact that he leaves it all (the kids, house etc.) all up to me-hell he won't even call for information on something that's for himself, I have to do it. I'm just tired of raising another child.
Not once has he ever got out of his comfort zone to do something that needed to be done for the kids or I. He never stayed at the hospital with Gloria the many many times she's been in-not even so I could go home and shower, he's never been to any of the kids sports games or gone to watch them compete.
And never once has he taken care of me when I was sick, hell he won't even make me a cup of coffee. I could go on and on. It doesn't mater. The crazy thing is I numb. At least for now.
