what if I say it wrong,
what if I stumble,
and what if I fall.
butterflies in my mind,
‘anxiety’ in simple terms it is called.

shaky hands, sweaty palms
panic attacks
and never-ending thoughts.

the fear of not being able
to control my life,
sleepless nights,
and a hell lot of crying,
waking up the next day,
with a smile so bright.
now you have an idea,
what my life really looked?

these disorders have friends too,
if you’ll let them live inside your mind
ADHD, brain cancer, insomnia
is what they will invite
but that’s just not it,
go on the internet,
there is a whole damn list.

you will scream,
you will fight.
those demons I tell you,
every second,
they will manipulate your mind.

and if you can relate to my life,
hey, that’s alright!
because this is not the end,
and someday you will shine.
you will shine very bright.

now all this suffering,
I don’t mind.
I grow with every tear,
and I know,
how to fix me, after every night.