I was catching up with a good friend of mine when he asked this dreaded question. “Why are you still single?” and it resonated with me all throughout the night. So, why am I? If you know me, I tend to overthink a lot like (A LOT). I’ve come up with a few points as to why I am still not in a relationship.

1.  I am still trying to find myself. It might sound a bit cliché for me to say that I do not know who Mae is. I mean, duh, I know what I like, hate, despise but I don’t know who am I as a person. It might be safe to say that I am still trying to discover my strengths and weaknesses.
2. I am trying to accept and get over my insecurities. Everyone has insecurities and before I get in a relationship, I want to fully accept myself the way I am physically and love all my flaws. I don’t want to be dependent on his attention to me that when he’s gone, I’ll feel not loved, I’ll feel incomplete or worse, I’ll feel like myself. There is that saying that before you love someone else, you should love yourself first.
3. The right guy hasn’t appeared yet. I believe in destiny. That somewhere out there, there is a guy meant for me and in the right place and time, we will meet.
4. Family first. I need the guy to know that he will not be in my priority list. First, church. Second, family. Third, school/work. Fourth, me. Fifth,friends. Sixth,him. I’ve had so many conflicts with this list but hey, if you can’t handle me at my worst then you can’t have me at my best. HAHAHA JOKE. (because this isn’t my worst)
5. I like solitude and I am afraid of commitment. Commitment to another human being is so icky for me. You can’t just trust that the person s going to be there the whole entire time through thick and thin. People get bored, that’s what they do. That’s why I always tell myself to not get too comfortable in a situation/place because it is only temporary. I’ve learned this the hard way so listen up! You shouldn’t trust that he or she will be there for you always every day, every single second of the day. You gotta learn to fill your own cracks by yourself. Don’t find someone to make up what you think you lack. But this isn’t to generalize every guy out there, I am merely saying this as a precaution because eventually, the right one will prove himself that he will stay no matter what. I believe that is when you know it is real. I long for that but until then love yourself first. ❤