I was feeling awful the other day when I made that last post.  I don't think I made myself sound too clear.  I was referring to my work when I was commenting on how people don't know how to talk to me.  On my first day back in a team meeting I was greeted with harsh words by a colleague.  Others just sat and watched.  It still angers me thinking about it.  I don't think I have come so close to actually wanting to hit someone since I was a juvenile. I work with an individual who believes their opinion and negativity should be put out there for all to hear and see.  I basically walked in to a situation and someone's Anger was directed towards me. The person actually came and apologized to me later.  I didn't accept it and told the person to get out of my room because I was upset with them.  I still haven't talked to this person.  I guess I can be pretty stubborn when someone does me wrong. I am too old to have to cater to others and their needs.  I have gone through life being understanding of others and their mental problems.  I think I can be mental for awhile and let someone understand me.

I have received so many cards and e-mails expressing sympathy for our loss.  Elaine is drawing a picture of Larry and I together.  I can't wait to see it.

It has been a headache dealing with all the paperwork that comes with losing someone.  Medical bills, bills in general...... I just wish someone would  knock me out for awhile and wake me up when it's all straightened out.

And then there is the belongings.  I haven't really even begun to think of what to do with that.  I have been wearing his shirts tho.  He has some really Warm thermal shirts that have been comforting me while I sleep and work around the house.  When I wear them I feel like he is hugging me and keeping me warm.....