02/07/23 I am sitting up in bed with my feet raised up. My feet and ankles are slightly swollen. This is my first brush with pregnancy bloat. 

I just finished watching the Pamela Anderson documentary on Netflix while your dad is watching his usual Nazi documentaries in the living room. 

Feeling sorry for myself and also a bit worried and paranoid about my bloated feet. I hope it's nothing serious. I hope you are ok inside me. I hope to God I didn't mess anything up. 

I wanted to write to you incase anything were to happen to me and we never get to meet in this lifetime.

I want you to know how much I love you. I hope you grow up to be a happy and loving person who sees the goodness in others and becomes a light and blessing to others. I want so many good things for you but most of all I hope you live a life of your own choosing, no matter what that may be. I hope you will be brave enough to never give up on your dreams and to live true and honest to your soul. 

May you never hide yourself and dull your shine to please other people. Listen to your inner self and have courage to follow your own convictions and live an honest and honorable life. 

You are wanted, needed and unconditionally loved. I am so happy and blessed to be your mom and I cannot wait to meet you and hold you in my arms. 

Love

Mom