I have always experienced crossroads in my life. No, I am not referring to the Britney spears movie. That was more like a cross country ride thats all. But by cross roads I mean that life itself being adventurous and most of the time lets face it, its quite routine. I dont see much change. Growing up the only normal was moving and travelling because of my dads work. It became normal to me to be able to explore and move around the world.
Though the upside was that I got to see a lot of new places and meet some amazing people the constant changes however did affect my confidence and created insecurities when I was younger. It was self doubting and struggles with catching up with others and studying and trying very hard to make sure I was staying afloat. Then School Days were definitely my toughest time. I eventually learnt that I need to let go and make things easier, I Worked Harder, I realised that my determination was going to bring me up to the mark.
This was definitely one of the toughest time of my life. Mainly because I was beginning to realise that the constant change had seen variation in the acamedics and it was really tough.
Finally, the thunderstorms were gone. The sun was shining and my hard work paid off, I took extra classes and made sure I worked harder I studied more number of hours till late in night when everyone was asleep and woke up early in the morning at the crack of dawn while my friends slept peacefully...it was a lotta tough nights and lack of sleep and finally I ace my exams I still remember the date I did that and I reached home and did a little dance! I had achieved this in my school days all on my own. I didnt give up, I refused to give up and it paid off..
Honestly, the harder days were there, I felt alienated even though I had great friends. I felt left behind even though I was standing in a crowd. It was one of those moments when you feel no matter how much you try nothing seemed to be working for you and I know now that it probably is normal but when your a kid you think its just happening to you and everyone is having a great time. I had a great family support who encouraged me and that became my confidence pillar and they were absolutely fantastic and caring beyond words.
IF YOU REMAIN DETERMINED AND BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, YOU DONT NEED ANYONE TO TELL YOU OR GUIDE YOU...YOU ARE YOUR BIGGEST STRENGTH.
This was one of my crucial lessons at a young age. When I overcame my fears of failing in my academics and fears of not succeeding in my life and career I kept remembering Mariah Carey words in my all time favorite song - Theres a hero, if you look inside your heart, you dont have to be afraid of who you are...that song changed my life and I guess I will never be able to express my gratitude becoz music has always been my form of inspiration and till this day I remember this song and how I used to play it on repeat mode to get motivation.
Shirt Dress - Shein , Bag - Micheal Kors, Watch - Micheal Kors, Sandals - Max
