This was the only place that no one really knew about. This is the only place where I feel safe enough to let out all of my crazy thoughts. Ironically, it is the most open...people can drop by anytime and see my thoughts...but if they are strangers I don't care so much :P
There was a scene in "You, Me and Dupree" that made me realize something. I'm Scared that what I presume would be a beautiful, quite life together with Dan is something that I will convince him he wants by having such a good relationship. I'm scared that he's going to think that, that is what he wants, when really, he loves his partying, drinking, adventerous ways and wants that. I'm scared I'm gonna start a life with him and he's just going to regress and turn back to those things and leave me hanging.
I only want those things if the other person wants them too. I'm really not comfortable hoping that he'll want a really nice family life, one day. I'm scared to be with him sometiems. I'm scared that s going to happen. Something is going to remind him of how fun and crazy life is he's going to want it again.
I remember being younger and LOVING parties and getting Drunk. It's just not my cup of tea anymore. I like to party and drink when there are things going on but not like I used to. I used to get so drunk I wouldn't remember things. It's not like that anymore. I want to live a peaceful life and be with people I love and enjoy my life too. I don't want to wake up not remembering what happened or missing out on private time with my boyfriend etc. Every time Dan's got drunk and passed out I think of how immature it is and how childish his mind still is to be still doing that at 21. Maybe I'm just maturing.
Anyways, like even going to bars and drinking or going to strip clubs and drinking..I'm not crazy about him doing those things anymore. I don't care if he does, it's just an unattractive quality in him. It makes me re-think about spending my life with him. I think I'm just really turned off of the whole "drunk-dan". I used to think it was fun and cute. I don't anymore. Drinking is different than getting drunk. And it's the getting drunk part that I don't like. Anyway...that's all for now. :)
There was a scene in "You, Me and Dupree" that made me realize something. I'm Scared that what I presume would be a beautiful, quite life together with Dan is something that I will convince him he wants by having such a good relationship. I'm scared that he's going to think that, that is what he wants, when really, he loves his partying, drinking, adventerous ways and wants that. I'm scared I'm gonna start a life with him and he's just going to regress and turn back to those things and leave me hanging.
I only want those things if the other person wants them too. I'm really not comfortable hoping that he'll want a really nice family life, one day. I'm scared to be with him sometiems. I'm scared that s going to happen. Something is going to remind him of how fun and crazy life is he's going to want it again.
I remember being younger and LOVING parties and getting Drunk. It's just not my cup of tea anymore. I like to party and drink when there are things going on but not like I used to. I used to get so drunk I wouldn't remember things. It's not like that anymore. I want to live a peaceful life and be with people I love and enjoy my life too. I don't want to wake up not remembering what happened or missing out on private time with my boyfriend etc. Every time Dan's got drunk and passed out I think of how immature it is and how childish his mind still is to be still doing that at 21. Maybe I'm just maturing.
Anyways, like even going to bars and drinking or going to strip clubs and drinking..I'm not crazy about him doing those things anymore. I don't care if he does, it's just an unattractive quality in him. It makes me re-think about spending my life with him. I think I'm just really turned off of the whole "drunk-dan". I used to think it was fun and cute. I don't anymore. Drinking is different than getting drunk. And it's the getting drunk part that I don't like. Anyway...that's all for now. :)
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