For the past few night's I've found myself wide awake in the wee hours of the morning. I'm not talking that, wake up to go to the restroom and pass back out awake. I mean the bright eyed, bushy tailed, can't get comfortable, not even yawning type of awake. I haven't quite figured out what it is that God is trying to get from me or to me but I'm available. I have spent these nights in worship and meditation.
I don't know about you; but I discovered that there's something special about seeking God early in the morning (aka late at night). I used to struggle, I MEAN REALLY STRUGGLE, with 5am prayer. I would always want to go then I would calculate...
"ok i have to be there at 5, which means I would have to get up by at least 4 to shower and be dressed, then it'll be over around 6:30-7.. what am I going to do for two hours before school starts? I can't go back home and go to sleep, I can't go to anybody's house... I'll just stay in bed and pray when I get up"Then one day I made up in my mind that I wtas going to get out of bed and go, no matter what. I actually made it that time and it was amazing. Then I was placed in a leadership position where weekly 5 am prayer was required.... Some days it was truly a struggle but once I woke up and began praying with my co-laborers things started to shift.
God began walking me up in the Wee Hours of the morning again to pay and to deposit into my spirit. I tell you there's something special about meeting God in those hours where night meets day. It's quiet, no distractions, no worries of agenda, chores, kids, husband/wife, or any of the day's usual hubbub.
There's a special serenity in the quite moments with God that nothing else compares to. This is where I found out who God is. I poured out my heart, yelled, cried, laughed, received correction, instruction, and labored for others.
These are the moments that take place in the wee hours of the morning where God reveals himself, peels off the layers of hurt, pain, weariness... When I was rejuvenated to be able to do the work after being hurt, when I was offered that same grace that I would need to extend to someone else later in the day or where I felt God's forgiveness the most.
There's just something about getting to know God and letting Him get to know you. Of course he knows us because He made us, but he desires communion and relationship. Get to your aecret place and if you have never been in the space where there's only you & God, I encourage you to find it. How horrible would it be to hear the Lord say, "I tell you, I know you not whence ye are; depart from me, all ye workers of iniquity." ( Luke 13:27 )
