Photo by Kelly Sikkema on Unsplash

When I asked God for the gift of healing I had absolutely no idea what I was really asking for.  I just knew that when I looked around, a lot of people were sick and hurting and I wanted to do something about it.  As I got older and matured in the things of Christ, I knew that healing wouldn't be just physical.  I knew that I was in for a crazy ride when God told me, "I have to keep breaking you in order to heal them".

Sounds crazy right?  It's really not. Psalm 51:17 says My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise. 

I wish someone would have told me what I was asking for when I asked God to break my heart with the things that break His heart.  That's a big, crazy, bold prayer.  I could have never imagined that it would lead me down the path that is has thus far.  I said all of that to say this... if you have a friend that has healing gifts, check on them.   Make sure they're ok.  Being broken before God, especially for others is not an easy task.  Sometimes the weight of the burdens you bear for others can be overwhelmingly great.  The heaviness of the call and anointing on our lives is sometimes crushing and most people never know the things that we struggle with.  

It's a big deal when you know that the call on your life is literally Luke 4:18.  
The Spirit of the Lord is upon Me, because He hath anointed Me to preach the Gospel to the poor. He hath sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,

At the surface, it seems like a few tasks but you never truly know how broken someone is until you begin to intercede for them and God shows you the condition of their heart and soul.  You never know the depths of a person's wounds until you're like Thomas and put your hand in to touch those places.  At times, I don't even know the depths and severity of my own wounds until God snatches the scab off exposing them again letting me know there's still internal healing to be done.

The thing about wounds and bruises that most people don't consider is the fact that even though they heal externally, they can leave long-lasting internal effects.  Scar tissue in the natural has the ability to shut down organs, cause chronic pain, limit movement and cause infertility.  It also does those same things in the spirit when brokenness and wounds go unaddressed.  Hurt and offenses harden your heart and cause difficulties in relationships.  They keep you from giving and receiving love and at times eve recognizing real love when it's given.

Deeps wounds can cause pain long after the thing that caused it occurred.  Even the mere thought or mention of it can cause pain to creep back in. Wounds and scars from our past aren't always physical.  The emotional ones are the hardest because you can't always pinpoint them and you definitely can't see them.  They're tricky because they only pop back up when you get in the right situation or exposed to the right thing to take you back to that place of hurt, over and over again.  Every time you see that thing, think about that person, talk about that situation... you feel that twinge of pain deep down on the inside.

Old wounds and scars definitely limit movement!  There's nothing worse than trying to move forward and something holding you hostage in a position that you can't get out of. In joints and connective places where there is scar tissue built up it may not only limit movement, but it might change your entire position and posture.  A friend of mine had a small area of scar tissue under one of her breasts after a mastectomy.  The pain was so bad she began to lean over a little to ease the pain.  Before you know it the position started to affect her spine and how she walked.  To think a scar the length of your thumb can do all that damage imagine what one scar can do to your forward movement in the spirit and in the natural with people. 

Scar tissue immobilizes you and holds you captive by not letting you move beyond that place of hurt, beyond that pain or past those memories. They bend you ever so slightly that you adjust your walk and become disabled.  You're no longer able to communicate, no longer able to trust, no longer able to give yourself away... all because of that scar tissue.

Probably the worst result of scar tissue is how it changes your reproductive abilities. I know you're probably thinking why do I need to worry about this, I'm not trying to have a baby? But you are!  There are so many things that each of us is destined to birth and push out.  When you have scar tissues in your reproductive organs it's so much harder to not only push something out, but to carry it full term and then birth it.  You'll keep naturally trying to abort the process, run from your calling, step out of what God has called and destined you to do.  How can you produce when the part of you that's supposed to create life is being suffocated by scars?  It sucks the life right out of you, keeps you exhausted and stunts the growth of the thing you're carrying.

My friend told me that she went back to the doctor to have her scar tissue looked at and the doctor hit it a couple of times with a laser and completely changed her life.  I'm so glad that we have a great physician who is able to handle any of our scars, wounds, the thing that is choking the life out of us and anything in between.  When God exposes those places that are scarred and mangled within us our response is to acknowledge them, get to the root of the wound and let him hit it with that supernatural laser called healing.   When the doctor IS healing and not just a healer, there's no way you can leave His presence and not be changed.

Be encouraged and endure the process...  it's always messy and ugly but the results are made beautiful in His time!