Without sharing all the details it was poking right away.  From verbal altercations with a neighbor’s family member (who is the Definition of crazy – always has been) – being accused of trespassing when we were getting his MIL’s mail – to being woken up right about the sun decided to shine by noisy neighbors (that continued for several hours) – I spent much of my time within creating a safe, protective bubble.  Sometimes it worked.  Other times, not at all.

A bike ride helped.  Seeing butterflies and dragonflies helped too.  Channeled the energy via yard work – also helped.  But none of it took away that inner tired, weary Voice that tells me she is so done with some of these repeating experiences and just wants to rest and be bathed in love.  I feel very “battle weary” now.  This experience has kicked my ass up and down and sideways.  I could use some TLC now.  A lot of it.  I can “pull up my bootstraps” – but that still doesn’t erase how I really feel inside.

I didn’t look much out into the world today.  Saw the schumann had another “black line” about 12 hours ago.  CERN is to start up in a matter of hours.  Where it all leads – I dunno.  As always just focused on what I want and how I want this s.show to go and end.  I am not a fan of holidays – calendar holidays – and as I shared last night the whole freedom day thing feels fake.  I will celebrate – authentically – when I am truly free – of my OWN choosing and definition and not someone elses.

Finds will be later – perhaps.  For now – I am off to do something fun with my girl.  How are ya’ll doing?

Love,

V.

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