What is self-Love, well, it's another of those hippy-tinged phrases, that either makes you go 'oh, yes, definitely we all need to do that' or, (cringe) ' yeah yeah whatever.'
This is what self-love has meant to me...a lot of stopping doing things, at first.
Stopping pulling off my toenails until they bled all over my feet
Eating when I am hungry
Stopping running fifty km's a week
No more news, horror, violence tv
No more partners
Looking at me in the mirror and learning how to smile
Giving myself some soft warm bedding and socks
Letting myself go back to what I enjoy
Writing, walking! Comedy, water views, clean air
Letting sad bec be put to rest
Throwing away my baseball bat
Holding on to my one friendship and not allowing myself to sabotage it...yes that's you Anna xo
Letting myself be me, a me who actually likes being on their own for long periods of time, for a while this was self-protective but it is a real part of me I no longer feel I need to make excuses for. I like my own company and lots of silence.
Writing only that which makes me feel uplifted and keeps me open
Declaring to myself (and no-one else) my love for Christ and dedication to His way of life...this one took a long time to admit to, and I often did it when all those other me's were off out somewhere...
Answering the call of love for love within myself is my calling, this has been my greatest testimony to my self-love to date. And peace has been its reward.
