How do you know you have an addiction? When in its Absence you hurt and if you take a little bit of a substitute it satisfies a little. You got a sugar Addiction...well a little chocolate will make you feel better.

So if you aren't doing well with your man and maybe you're addicted to him you will go through withdraw without him until you can switch him up for another one. This usually works or it has in the past. But I have noticed two very surprising details in my psyche as of late.

If with him I don't feel so great I would prefer to be alone. In the past I have stayed even when the man chose violence as his first form of communication because I thought I couldn't live without the guy!? Fast forward today and in the absence of a man I have feelings for..I am okay. Slight pangs but no one is falling apart. And in the presence of available men willing to give me attention...and anything else I want...I am not interested. How am I NOT INTERESTED?! I am not chasing down a man-child or dating any other one.

I don't know how long this good adult behavior is going to last but the fact that it even exists at this moment is huge for this immature woman. I wish you would stand up and applaud me because I am so proud of myself. I am still a little kid. I want to go out dancing! I want to drink a gin tonic on the rocks or a few more than that. I want to be slightly irresponsible...slightly.