and in the midst of learning a lot and finding myself more capable than ever before...i am dealing with the drama of my personal life that would be funny if it wasn't mine.

my ex beloved seems to have a knack for punching men i have been linked with and this causes me no end of panic and guilt and and and of other bad feelings. he called me to tell me he hit one already yesterday and is hunting for another. men. really, i think i could live without them as lovers if the alternative (women) wasn't more dangerous for me. women are impossible to forget or fall out of love with once you've fallen. so for my sake and others, women are out of the question and men are just so predictably annoying and mildly irresistible.

i miss my baby. i want to take her into my bed and sleep all day. all all day.